I've been having two nites of bad quality slp since monday.. cos of the stupid fastcat project. Try changing figures, entering them in the software, calculating a recommended base pay. Over and over again.. for TWO consecutive nights. See if you'll slp well when those numbers keep floating in your mind when ur eyes closed for a well-deserved slp...

Argh... I kp changing them to get the targeted percentages.. Till I think I stressed myself till I was too wound up to slp properly. I am glad I finally adjusted those values to wad is considered ok for our tutor. My god... I've nv tried editing sth for so long b4...

As usual as the end of term draws nearer, so do deadlines. But after a meeting today, I feel slightly better abt my 226 project. The only prob is the interview, though alrdy granted to us, has not been fixed a day for it yet. "Possibly early next week" How definitive is that... I seriously hope nth happens last minute. We're counting on the interview and alrdy did so much background research & preparation! *cross fingers*

My list of deadlines is soo... long. Group work. Individual work. Projects, reports, presentations and the what-nots. I look forward to striking them off one by one...

whole weekend I was stuck at home... with my lappie, textbk, tv & miniclip games. I am still not determined enough to mug! dunno why when I sit down to type the notes I'll tire out and end up restless so easily =P but psychology.. though interesting the chapters are damn long..

and typing notes on my laptop gives me so much distraction. haha! I'm just not focused enuff.. read blogs, play games, watch tv.. grr.. exam's in like a mth's time.. I shld be feeling the jitters shldn't I?

now i really know wad army guys do when they are inside their bunk, bored and trying to entertain themselves. Eugene's officer frens(from his prev camp) shot a video of him and themselves in e bunk. Making him play his guitar and 'dedicate' the song to me... haha... So sweet! Though they would see it here, but thks guys, and thks dear (: help me tell them ba...

ytd finally went for the Suki Sushi Buffet after my dental appt. I've been looking fwd to it all week cos so long haven went for sushi buffet liao! And when i was lying on the chair in e dental clinic earlier, it was wad I was thinking abt to distract myself. Distract myself from the damn drilling sound and that thing going at my front teeth making me that sickly feeling in my tooth... ARGH! was filling my front tooth la... now its like any other tooth, white white liao. haha..

ytd I met this inconsiderate woman in the ladies at AH. She was talking on e phone inside the toilet. And I think she's there for damn long alrdy... Cos the woman in front of me was shaking her head and sighing incessantly at the ill-mannered woman inside. Cant u finish your business and get yourself out of there, find a nicer place to chat with your friend? I don't have to hear you teaching someone how to cook chicken soup and brag abt your trip to Japan IN THE TOILET! my god la... and she was talking in a mixture of canto and English... argh... She is lucky she nv came out even when I was abt to leave... I would shoot her my dirtiest look fit for a woman behaving like this.

Assure parents that...

Ensure that...

Improve on plans... (Not improvise on plans)

No more 'erm'... presentation over, hmm... dunno how i fare leh. The tutor gave me feedback which I thought is minor but I dunno how 'minor' is it to her... Feel insecure abt how I have done so far... After all, it is 4 AUs and takes up quite some considerable percentage in this sem's GPA... Grr...

having a presentation later abt childcare service providers. I never knew they are so 'advanced' now, its like they haven evolutionised. Or maybe its just my grp's center, wahaha... Its too good! =P

I wonder if its cos of my nap in e afternoon, or cos of the presentation jitters... I couldn't slp properly last nite. haha... I just can't feeling nervous over the presentation although this time is much easier than the last time. The topic's more interesting, rather. I even had a nightmare abt the presentation!!! That our teacher didn't like it... omg. haha...

Oh well. I can catch my slp later, today only 2 hrs of lesson - which is the presentation class. Cos my forensics got e-learning lecture... Maybe I can go for my facial? hmm...

well, except for the fact that I had a brain-draining project meeting on Fri... I had a great weekend so far... had dinner at IMM with eugene and brought him to buy his present at City Chain. Ha, timing is just right that the watch I bought for him in London is breaking down and his bday is near... So yep. Glad we could find one that fit into my budget and he liked... =P

I was quite determined after i finished my project meeting not to do anything until after the BBQ ytd... and I really did it. wahaha. Too much project work and staying up during the week... gotta give myself a break or I'll be killed by the stupid FastCat. Minshan and I made a deal today abt planning our timetable next sem so we can do project tog. Haha... She was real great help when I was doing my project today. I owe her a lot, a big big favour!

Ytd was sompong's BBQ. Actually... I am touched that he took so much effort to invite us and organise the BBQ everything... Cos its not easy to coordinate everything! And usually this kind of bday thingy is organised by us for the bday boy/gal one. hahaha... Plus there are so much things to take care of and things like the weather... you can't control and makes it so unpredictable. Guess we can say its lucky that it did not spoil our BBQ much. Just shifting here n there... (:

During the afternoon, me, shuyi, pong and HH were just chatting and sitting ard... after we bought the groceries. waiting for thong ler to turn up, at the same time we also watched a lot of amazing youtube videos. Crissangel la... And the damn good japanese guy... and the MTV which really baffled me. hahaha. Thks for that afternoon peeps, was real gd start to the BBQ!

By the time BBQ start, all the project stuff were thrown to the back of my mind liao. Real thankful to see yan and her bf, thongler & weizhe who were the most 'faithful ones' by the pit... helped a lot with BBQing while the rest of us mostly mingled and ate. hahaha... And it was the first time Eugene joined us... Glad we could all mix around well and not much 'leng chang'! Chatting, eating and of cos drinking! Its the first time I drank so much since I came back from France... haha. Brought back memories of the trip again... =P

In short, last night was simply great guys... thks for making my day (: one regret though is kor cannot join us! looking fwd to photos from pong!

back to more project meetings... just had one ytd and another one's at 1pm back in sch... 214 meeting is one that I always enjoy. No matter what assignment. Cos my grp's fun and everyone contributes ideas & is spontaneous... Ytd had a lot of laughs while in the reading room during the meeting. This week somehow we had alot of silly jokes surfacing. I think its cos Mon's lesson was too bored and we decided to entertain ourselves =P

later... FastCat project. I seriously hope its only me who did the data entry or dunno how to use the software cos I forgotten where I put my booklet. Cos the values are supposed to change so we can record the difference once I changed some input value, but it DIDN'T! tried so many times it just didn't wk... gee... tell me its only me. only cos I'm a IT-idiot...

spent the whole of last night and my evening just now trying to find just ONE STATISTIC from databases and news articles... I dunno is it me who's too picky or wad la. haha... anyway, I think I've got what we need so yep. But honestly... when trying to do the FastCat phase 2 report... I really hope its cos I am doing by myself and hasn't discussed with the rest of the group yet. I am suddenly stressed by the stupid project... ARGH!

2nd day of school. hmm... I guess the good thing abt having a good break is that it gives u a good charge up for the next 6-7 wks ahead. Which brings me to the bad thing... it feels too good for u to want to go back to sch... Just ytd I was alrdy making mental checklists of 'to-dos' and 'coming ups' through out the day. Presentations, report deadlines, and what-nots. ha. Right now its still manageable. Let's hope it stays that way...

anyway... got quite a surprise when sompong smsed to invite us to a BBQ this sat. haha... never quite expected that from him. But really appreciate it as a good opportunity for a gathering. Kor, will you be ok to walk out by then huh? maybe we can arrange some form of transport for you =P

oh ya. quite surprised by her sms today. saw it during my class. and she apologised again for hurting me so carelessly. actually, I more or less got over it liao. she said hope we wont end up ignoring each other or wad. but when we see each other after classes end (we'll always meet in the corridor cos I'll be heading out and she'll be waiting for her class) it was a bit awkward. hmm... I just nd time to 'adjust' cos I cant pretend nth happen ya. and she seemed too engrossed in e mag she was reading to hear me calling her. anyway... leave that for now... I'll see her again anyway

I had came across these cute & funny baby videos from Youtube when I was reading Qianhua's blog some time ago... And these are some of my fave... haha. You guys might have seen b4,
But I never fail to get a good laugh everytime I see these videos... And we wouldn't complain abt giving cute one more glance, would we?

"Blood"

His facial expressions are so cute!

"Baby Ally"

She has such good imitations of an adult... won't spoil the fun by telling u how. Watch it!

What a baby did to get attention...

"Funny Baby"

This might be 'obsene' to some, but I hope you understand why I find it hilarious...

I totally cannot understand why this thing can happen... OMG!

last nite I was in quite bad condition, emotionally. felt like talking to someone abt it and here comes my kor, soonhui... Had one of those heart-to-heart talks with him abt friends and friendships... About those who are and those who had been.

when things like this (or chats like this) happen, it nv fails to bring back those memories. Somehow I feel I did an incredible job of getting over it. From being disappointed, sad, hurt etc (whatever you feel when a friendship or friend fails you) to being how I feel now - neutral, numb. And even though now I see her on a regular basis in class, I treat her like just another classmate, passerby, stranger. I know, some friends are concerned abt this, but... you guys know how I feel abt this, thks for ur concern but save the effort ba. I will not give in and let myself have another chance of getting hurt de. Hadn't they say once bitten, twice shy... I was bitten more times than that.

I went to re-read my blog entry last nite and realised I should have used a better word to describe what happened. Not drifted apart, but forgotten I guess. She smsed me to apologised for everything and say it was not organized by them but her bf. And it was a last min thing and etc. Actually... I'm disappointed at not only her, but the whole bunch of them, cos its not just one or two but the whole clique's that was there. She knew there was no excuse for what happened and apologised again.

Gal, (or gals) I dunno if you would be able to see this but here's my thoughts abt this incident... You know how my friendship(s) had failed b4 becos I trusted you gals enough to confide in u all. You gals also know how I felt abt things like this but yet... How did a thing like that happened I really dunno. But what hurts is not that I wasn't there to enjoy the fun and everything, but how... I was forgotten like some unimportant information by the lot of you. When its a whole lot of you, rather than only one... It hurts a lot more. I dunno how am I going to be able to talk and laugh with you all without remembering without this tugging at the back of my mind. I am not those type who will bury everything and pretend nothing happen, let it pass. I am those that will lose trust in someone when he/she did enuff damage to lose it. Forgetting it or not is another matter. But I will definitely let u know how I feel, so yep.

Am I making a big deal out of everything? No I don't think so

just went to do some exploring on facebook and found stuff that sort of breaks my heart. Wa... Sad... How come like that? I knew of the bday last week and was asked if I wanted to share the present. On Mon I smsed to ask if they were celebrating cos I had a hunch most likely they would... at the very least meet for dinner or sth. No reply... no sms or call. But lo and behold... there was indeed something afterall.

Drifting apart is something I have experienced ever since secondary school but experiencing it again doesn't mean there's lesser pain. Its like... hai. Cos we are no longer classmates? I tried to organize outings and stuff... kp in touch etc.

Sian. They are right when they say some things are better unknown. Should never have known.

this gotta be the best mid-term break I ever had so far. And I'm so sure there's not going to be another like this to beat it. haha. No quizes after the week, no assignment, no tutorials etc. I know I shld have use this break to do something. Like revision or reading up etc. But... I sort of heck la. Since this is the mid-term BREAK, it means there's like half a term more to slog my guts out. When else can I relax when this is obviously the time to. So I shall recharge, and brace myself for the next 6-7 wks or so. More intensive project tasks for sure, cos we gotta be finishing them up to meet all the deadlines. But well... till we get there, let's not worry abt it for the moment.

So far, this week has been blissful...

Mon: Cooped up at home reading my books
Tues: Meeting HH & shuyi
Wed: Breakfast with dear (: & my first mid-autumn 'celeb' in at least 5 yrs
Thurs: My little getaway to Downtown East...

I think I shall spend weekend at home, after such an eventful week. hehe. also to settle myself down for the start of sch... Grr. Maybe that's the time to do some reading then... We'll see how it goes =P (ah gal, procrastinating?)

something just happened & I made up my mind to do something I otherwise might not have done. Don't worry guys, its not illegal or immoral, neither is it dangerous... Just did sth which might seem bad under other circumstances, but is totally justified cos I'm just showing that gals are no pushovers. wahaha... no no, eugene never ill-treat me... dont worry... This not about me...
(Wahaha... I got you curious now isn't it... Must be wondering what exactly is it...)

Today turned out surprisingly eventful thks to Shuyi & Heow Hui. I had almost spent the whole day lazing around reading my books. I was almost tempted into going to the library at JE to get some more bks. But I pulled out last min, lazy to leave my den, to face the blistering weather outside. In e end, shuyi & hh heading for IMM... so there I go... had a great time with them! haha, we spent like 5 hrs there lo. Chatting, shopping etc. The unexpected jokes really crack us up... LOL. Thks for the great afternoon guys (:

so many books I want to read!

• The 6th Target
  by James Patterson and Maxine Paetro
• Maximum Ride: The Angel Experiment
  by James Patterson
• Maximum Ride: School's Out-Forever
  by James Patterson
• Maximum Ride: Saving the World and Other Extreme Sports
  by James Patterson
• Step On A Crack
  by James Patterson & Michael Ledwidg

ARGH! I wanna read all of these James Patterson books! And there a few more which I've glanced at the bookstore but cant find on the official website... why is he so efficient in writing.. I can never ever catch up... ):

gatherings & shopping... great start to my recess week... met up with soonhui, shuyi, heow hui, yingxiu & edwin at citylink to eat at the jap restaurant... Its been so long since i last saw edwin, nv change much eh, haha...

anyway, was quite disappointed with the service of the staff that day. It came across as surprising as the last two times I came were good experiecnes and the crew was quite helpful and responsive (yes, please note: RESPONSIVE) last evening there were 3 of them who were standing right across our table, like 2-3 metres away... Chatting or talking let's not say, since they might have been discussing some restaurant matters, we wouldn't have known. But still, shldn't u kp a lookout for customers who might nd ur help etc? If you're busy then at least acknowledge n get others to help, there were like 2 of us kept saying 'excuse me, excuse me...' and they din notice us at all. Happened like twice la... and everytime we were served cos happens that this other waitress or waiter walked past... Felt so damn pissed at the second time I cant help raising my voice... I still got their email address... Maybe I really shld shoot an email there... hmph...

anyway, back to a happier note, just came back from shopping a while ago... in JB again... this time more of window shopping since I had a great haul last time abt a mth ago... so only bought a long sleeve top... now, getting a nap b4 I go out again... hehe... have a great weekend guys...

Have never curl up in my bed or sat lazily at my table reading a book for so long... Last nite I read till 2 plus and let weariness take over me b4 I was willing to go to bed... Finished a book called 'The Second Chance'. Well, I picked it up cos I was short of a book... I hate to come out of the library without 4 bks unless I have to. Given on the limited collection at JW Library... Its hard to find newer books. Recently also been reading Nora Roberts... Writing under the name of J.D. Robb for a serious of adult crime novels in 2059.

Quite fun... In that era, alot of things were automated. Computers are 'cleverer', being able to perform commands upon voice command. Can perform multiple database functions... Doing those data mining stuff, process info to help indentify suspects etc. They also have robots... household ones like a housekeeper. I forgot wad did they name it... Haven read it in a while, it was b4 sch start that I found an interest in this series... Although Roberts got other nice crime novels too... and she also writes fantasy and romance... which many were bestsellers but I havent pick up...

Oh... Adult crime novel meaning... More violent, more brutal... and of cos like all books originating from the West, there are the steamy scenes. But I like the setting of the book, haha... interesting to 'take a peek into the future'...

one thing I dread is going for interviews. I simply dislike the formality (be it the ambience or the attire on me...) and the facade I have to put on. What I'm trying to say here is I have to keep on 'selling' myself to the interviewer. Of cos I wasn't throwing out stories & lies abt myself... Its because its simply not me to talk on and on abt myself... trying to convince the other party how good I am... etc. I'm sure alot of you guys can agree with me on this...

But poor us... Being university students who not only have to study hard, but are also expected to produce a wonderful CV boasting of your various non-academic achievements... showing how you can juggle those mountains of tutorials and projects with a active life outside your pile of books...

Are you a leader or a follower?

In what ways do you think you can be an asset to the club?

How would you rate yourself in terms of management in a scale of 1 to 10?

And more of these questions... Argh... No matter wad's the results... I am quite reluctant to give up wadever free time I have for myself (which means to be spent with eugene, slacking at home and meeting up with friends... heh heh)... Hai. Shld I hope to get it or not?

Well... a picture says a thousand words... Much less these 2, heh heh... Finally uploaded the neoprints which we took at Lot 1 that day...

Feel much more relaxed and at ease today cos the quizes are finally over! WOO!

Anyway today the forensic science quiz was quite funny. Imagine 1200 people taking the paper in the NY Audi... not enough seats to sit one seat apart... So... heh heh. You can imagine wad happen la?
A lot murmurings... discussions, whispers here and there. =P The paper was quite unexpected la. Only 25 questions? That's 20% of our grade leh... In any case, I'm glad everything's over... Looking fwd to my recess! Hope that amidst the projects and things to do, I can squeeze out time for reading a book or two... Still haven read eugene's book - 5 People You Meet in Heaven... How long was that? Till now I still haven read...

Anyway guys... looking fwd to having dinner with u all this weekend, though its a pity not everyone can turn up! Now where should we go... hmm...

am I mad... how come I see names of psychologists I've just read on blogs... Quoted on a blog, rather.

No, upon double checking... it really is there. And it really is from what I've just revised. There I was staring at the name (Chomsky... ring a bell anyone?) and furiously trying to remember what this man did or said. Proposed a theory? Named some concept? Did some experiment? All I rem is he came from Chapter 7 - human development...

All the things I have to cramp inside my head b4 1130 tml morning... Argh.

after so long, me & eug finally managed to take neoprint tog. Cos we had went to PS, Bugis Juction but the neoprint shop there were either gone or under renovation. Now when was the last time I took neoprints? It was so long ago... in JC ba. Brought back some memories, all the squeezing in the machine and frantic rush to change pose, decorate... This is the first time I take neoprint without a big crowd, haha...

lucky for us the machine has unlimited decoration time. But I wasn't fast enough to choose all the shots I want, so end up with only 2 from all the 6 we took while trying to figure out how many we could actually choose. Its ok, takes experience, haha... we couldn't figure out the Japanese words... so next time we will go back to the same machine! Oh ya, now then I noe how overpriced the neoprint shops are in town... Cos we took ours for 5 bucks only and its the same like those in HMV.

anyway, shall scan soon and upload to show u all ya... wahaha =P

Oh ya, last nite ate Ajisen's for the first time since a long time... I don't rem when was the last. But I always love their soup base and the side orders... Spoilt for choice... haha. So many I wanna eat but can choose only one... =P

Oh well, enuff procrastination... back to revision... mug, mug, mug!

woke up in great pain this morning. wonder if it was the durians which was suspected of causing my dad to be nauseous and dizzy last night? Or is it just that my good friend decided to turn up for her monthly visit. In any case, I sat on my armchair for an agonizing half an hour before I could manage to drag myself up to wash up so I can get a hot drink. Only to puke first into the toilet. To think less than 12 hrs ago I heard my dad did the same thing at the very same toilet bowl.

What is happening?! Argh. No matter wad, it is so not the right time... I need my weekend to revise... So I just popped a panadol, the last thing I want to do. Never mind if those rumours of how long they stay inside my system. Once in a while wont hurt...

Anyway, lately people seem to be having relationship prob. My ex-colleague approached me on MSN desperate to talk to someone abt her failing relationship. Sometimes, despite all the warning signals and loud alarm bells that goes off, people still want to hang on to whatever was left of a once sweet and loving r/s.

I do wonder... In a world where people are so much more educated and open-minded, where we hear many stories of how people change their partners/spouses like the shoes on their feet or clothes on their racks... Why do things like that still happen? Is this perseverance? The I-love-him-and-I-will-wait-for-him-to-change attitude? Or do they not want to admit defeat? Of cos, the main reason is that there still is love for the other party. But if staying (or trying to make someone stay) makes both parties distressed and so troubled... Why make yourselves go through the emotional agony?

No, I'm not saying this cos I am happy in my r/s now and is oblivious and insensitive to my friend(s) (well, I'm sure there are many more incidents like this to come in future...). I totally understand where all that is coming from, I just cannot understand why when the solution is so simple - make a decision and give yourself time to get over it - some don't do it. Life is so short... And another colleague once said to me: Live for yourself...

When we were in France, among our many random chats in our rooms, Veron and me were discussing a similar topic. (we had so much free time you have no idea how many topics we can have in a single night) And she said sth like I am too rationale. Cos I made such a decision before and ended the previous r/s once and for all so there was no dragging and stuff. I hate that.

I just hope, for that friend and many others out there... Make a decision for yourself. And the someone whom u love. Cos when holding on makes life for two people miserable, why not take a step back and let go... This may even salvage whatever love you two may still have for each other even though you can't be tog and have an amicable end. Life is about so much more other than love and each other... Isn't it?

幸福是看得透 而不是舍不得他的所有
- <<触摸>>

been dragging myself past these few days quite wearily... Not that I dont get enuff slp. Its the first wk I get to start lessons at 1130 on a Mon. And seeing that tues was just a 4 hr ordeal and today I started at 1030. I shld have nothing to complain rite?

WRONG!

Seeing wk piled up on ourselves as the recess wk draws nearer. Next week will be living hell for me and Joyce... Well, take a look ar what we have on our plates...

Mon: Psychology quiz
Tues: HR quiz
Wed: In-class comms assignment(which means test lo...) + Forensic sci quiz
Thurs: Phase 1 report due for project...

And so, although all of us wants a break alot, look at what we gotta go thru b4 we really get it... ARGH! Just had a teeny bit of motivation from one of our group assignment. The one which had a big mad rush and we were 20 mins late in submitting. Lucky that tutor is those kind man. He gave us A+ for our efforts.

but then, went to chk my mail n realised this hotel which I wrote to last nite to request for interview for one of our group projects... REJECTED us... damn it la. Now wad?!?!

Career Foundations Module Criteria: Full Formal Wear

Now that 5 weeks are over, from tml onwards, Mon classes start at 1130, woohoo!

( Well, taken in e toilet so that explains the poor lighting =P )

me & Joyce! I was looking at her phone and she was looking in front. haha...
I got poor coordination paiseh...

last nite would have been perfect if the neoprint shop was still there at Bugis Junction! Long time nv go Bugis le, and since me n eug trying to take neoprint tog, we tot of going there. Went for the sumptious Claypot Rice at Tea Shake Hut. You guys should really go try it! Its in the same row as MOS Burger and Mac's. Sells milk tea also... Claypot Rice is a must-try if u go there... (: a lot of chicken n sausages, and if u go on weekdays there's set meal=main course +drink.. $7.50... All thks to Veron and Guo Min who showed me the place the last time i went...

Then was dessert! Wahaha... Mango with Sago. Mango with Grapefruit. Though crossing the road to get across the street to the row of shophouses there is a bit intimidating... But so many pp's doing it!

Sian... another day of reading reading reading... Been playing this papa pizzaria game... It's wad kept me going during my little breaks between reading. quite fun, like dinner dash concept, but the graphics are cute. Maybe u all can google or yahoo it. haha...

TGIF

don't ask me why last nite, or rather this morning, I was so affected by what cousin said. Stress? Well now I'm just glad its Friday!

On air now - Sundial Dreams by Kelvin Kern, recommended by Eugene. Real soothing song (: Hope you guys like it too!

cousin just approached me with this job opportunity. long term part time as a coordinator for entrepreneurs. the pay is good. but that's not what I was attracted to. it was the exposure and of cos the effect that it will have on my CV. yeah, I'm practical... anything wrong with that?

But honestly, 2-3 hrs everyday... Its not for me... I am not that efficient in my studies. Unfortunately I happen to be those who have to wk doubly (and maybe even more) hard for results which some people can achieve quite effortlessly. by this i of cos do not mean that they did not work hard for it, but their brains are just damn smart. So I really do not think I will be able to do this, besides, its long-term... It also doesn't help that I am not as motivated to study/mug like last time in NH.

I am starting to question myself... What do I want to achieve for myself? How come when such an opportunity jumps at me I didn't take it... I worry it'll affect my grades, but it actually isn't much to worry abt anyway. What's a 2nd lower honours worth?

then cousin started asking me have i tot abt my job, my future. What do i want to do? What kind of job do I want? What path to take? My answer was for now I just want to get gd grades, better grades... cos I haven really tot abt it. Though I've been looking out for career talks abt HRC in sch, it doesn't really count I guess... But he urged me to think more abt it and not be caught in the rat race like everyone else...

I know he meant well but I'm kinda stressed by him. Suddenly find myself very cynical. Very negative and discouraged to continue reading the stupid article. I hate things like this. Feelings like this. Too bad eug's slping... could have grumbled to him... or just talked abt it...

Feel lousy abt everything, including myself.

wondering what I shld do now... Pick up some tb to read, do my part of the project or slack my time away since its thurs and tml there's no sch.

Checked my email and saw the notice from the Financial Aid Dept. Sianz... this yr get 1150... I still rem last yr i got 1600! I think it was a trap to lure me in! Haiz. Better than nothing lo. At least it'll pay my phone bills...

I guess I can idle a while more... But I shld really pick up my psychology tb. Mid-term's coming soon and it needs a lot of memory wk judging from the guidelines they gave us to prep for it...

I'm finding it a great chore to do those readings. Some are especially dry, with endless lines of bombastic words that makes it so hard to digest. Every sentence is screaming "BORING!" to me... Hai. At least the textbk's not as bad... just that its equally long but the language is so much better. You can be quite captivated by my Psychology textbk, so colourful and with lots of pictures n backgrd knowledge to let u digest everything better. But of cos, Psychology requires us to rem a lot of terms... But well, let's worry abt that later.

Week 5 is alrdy ending... its so fast, isn't it? Soon it'll be recess and then after that will be the mad rush to complete projects and compile reports... ARGH. I wonder so far... what have I really achieved in university. No CCA, no straight As. Just avg results, that threaten to be pulled down if I don't sustain them by mugging... aiya. getting increasingly sian. Uni life is so dreadful, everyone ard is finding year 2 a complete bore. With the heavy wkload and tremendous readings...

Cant imagine what will it be like when I graduate... will all these really makes us what it takes to be a consultant?

ytd I went for my facial at my aunt's shop... My cousin happens to have a coffee stall nearby at the Bkt Timah Wet Market, so I went to visit her...

Since it was alrdy afternn, business was slow so I had the time to chat with her... Glad to see that both her n her husband's wking happily tog. But I also noticed this old woman who was collecting cups there.

Cousin told me she got a sad story... When I say she's old, she really is! She's a petite woman who's got white snowy hair, and is bent with age... Walks slowly... cos of her age - 82! Over 80 and she still has to wk! Little did I noe its cos her children refused to give her money... They refused to answer her calls. Even her husband who's old like her... is also wking...

This kind of story always make me sad... There are so many different kinds of people in this world... There are those who are poor, but yet are happy becos they learn to live with their lot. Make the best out of what they have and still be happy becos they noe how to be content.

But there are also some, who are born with a silver spoon in their mouth. Maybe even gold... and waste their money on pricely possessions, drinks, women, and the what-nots. And in e meantime, waste their life away too...

This world is sometimes really unfair isn't it? Some people just don't deserve what life has dealt them...

Compensation - Chapter 5

Psychology - Chapters 3, 4, 5

Strategic HR - Chapters 4, 5, 7, 8, 9, 11

Read, read, read...

woke up today feeling refreshed. and surprisingly... Motivated. ha. Exactly opposite of what I've been feeling like 12 hrs ago. I dunno... Somehow there's this voice inside my head telling me I can do it! I can catch up on e readings! Although... I know better than anyone else, it needs more than motivation. I also need like 48 hrs in a day. haha... Oh man, all e readings... Esp psyhology... I've only read 1.5 chapters and so far its week 5 tml... *shrugs*

A step at a time... From tml onwards I won't have to work... Hopefully I can squeeze time out of projects time to read, read, read!

Later going back to school to prepare for a group presentation tml with my grp. I'm glad at least this modules turning out good. Although its not exactly my fave. But at least I feel glad there's people who's enthu n spontaneous abt it... Okies, back to my slides...

guess its almost the same for everyone when u're stressed and overworked your mood tends to swing like a pendulum and u are as easy to snap as a stretched rubber band.

I can tell you that was how I feel this afternoon. And when I had the time to rest for a while, lie down on my bed... I cant slp. I just felt so tensed. Stressed. And my mind is so full of all the project details! ARGH! Cant even rest and relax properly to recharge. I lay on e bed for one full hour. How's that... I wouldn't call that much of a rest.

Apparently gt some cork up la. Quite pissed. The person supposed to compile went to some camp and ended up not contributing much. Not that its her fault she went for camp, she forgotten abt it. And she didn't even let us noe, or make any plans to make up for it. DAMN IT. Am I supposed to ask after u? And till now I havent heard from her, still at e camp I supposed. Next week I'm going to just do my part and wash my hands off the compiling wk. Hai.

So tired now. There's a lot to do... Although someone has helped to take over the compiling from me. I know I shldn't stop... But I just dont feel like doing anything. Just stay online. Read up on my Monday presentation and wk again tml ba.

I am so looking fwd to the recess week. Now my short term goal is

- 2300 tonight: hand up the darn group assignment.
- Mon: Last Career Foundations lesson, no more morning classes for mon after that. WOoHOo!
Group Presenation for Biz Comms.
Dinner with Eug? Havent cfm. haha. but at least its sth worth looking fwd to.

Our NH gang's at Chevron's singing KTV now. Wish to join u all too, but time's too tight for me. Maybe get u all out for a dinner someday... I still haven passed u all the Eiffel keychains...

after a long day, I had just attended a project meeting. Not to mention b4 that was this 4 hrs seminar which was mentally draining... We got back our assignment which we submitted last week, a rushed and unorganized one. I rem that nite me n joyce were furiously trying to do last min changes n discussion cos we were nearing the 11pm deadline. Plus our grp din manage to meet up to do it at all...

So getting an A- was quite ok for it, I tot. Hmm... could be cos I'm tired. My groupmate commented sth which for a while I was quite pissed. But I didn't show... although I quite wanted to say sth. I rem she came to our table saying.. " I haven open the final draft leh... haven even seen it at all..."

Then when we got it back and saw the grade, she was saying if she saw it, she would do this and that. Why the explanation nv longer etc... Come on la, all those IFs... Why didn't you open it up and look thru it when I sent you all to ask for comments? Why when submit le then say so much? I know I could have done a better job compiling... but isn't it supposed to be a group effort?! Dunno la... Just felt a bit.. upset could be the word la.. Hmm joyce, dunno la.. This was how I felt, but yep.. For a while only. Dunno if you noticed or how u felt. haha. Didn't want to blow it up besides, she didn't seem to say it very seriously though she harped on it for a while.. Oh well..

The weekend which I've been looking fwd to is finally here... but tml alrdy packed with 2 project meetings for both my core modules.. So I guess no time for me to go home b4 meeting eugene for dinner.. Then Sunday gotta go back to sch for another meeting.. NO TIME!

I've decided. I will quit my calling job after next week. Simply getting too much to handle.
Don't dare to take up too many stuff at one go... in case my results get affected. Really wanna get it up by one notch ( one GPA class =P ) so I must wk hard, wk hard!

But I feel its hard cos this time round there's a lot of grp assignments. Sometimes even presentations. There's virtually one every wk for both our HR modules. So its like a lot coordination. So if u meet here, stay back there... wk once in a while. How do u catch up on ur reading huh?! Maybe I don't have gd time management. But what good is it when I dont have time to manage?

Reading one article on Hay's mtd alone took me like 2-3 hrs, cos nd to digest. They're throwing alot readings to us b4 and aft class... HATE IT! Grr...

forgot to mention in my last post... Me and eug actually wanted to take neoprints tog after the Hairspray movie but in e end we din manage to... Sad. Long time nv go PS, then do we realised the neoprint shop has long gone. Oh my, gotta update myself...

So yup, neoprint's on our agenda for now.

Today... I had sth else on my agenda... SHOPPING! My usual shopping trip in JB. This time to Jusco. With my family and 4 other family frens. (my bro's fren & his mum, my mum's fren and her son - complicated hor...)

I had high hopes for this trip cos i felt I desperately need to find a new bag! New clothes and shoes too... Cos my shoes are worn out by France actually... Those that i brought there, the poor soles walked miles... Gonna be cui soon.

My 'trophies' all came from the same shop... Alot of things going for 50% discount. 5 tops, 2 pairs of shoes and a necklace... Wahaha. Guess how much i spend? =P Abt S$90++ Only boo-boo is no new bag... I'll need to do sth abt the necklace... Make it longer, rummage ard my mum's old treasures to see if i can find the right stuff.

But having such an eventful day, I had to end it with rushing to compile my grp's stuff for Com & Ben (Compensation & Benefit, for the sake of abbreviation, not the names of my new classmate)while watching Campus Superstar... Tml gotta chiong chiong chiong! Hopefully I'll be able to do much more reading to help me catch up!

hairspray... watched it at The Grand Cathay. Woo... the seats are nice, and the theatre looks real up and glam. haha.

The movie is musical-style cos it originated from a musical. Alot of singing and great dancing... the music and everything makes u feel like dancing along with them! and the whole movie is so happy and fun-filled. of cos, every movie has a theme... the meaning behind this movie is to iron out all the discrimination and differences perceived by people... There is one particular song with some lines of the lyrics that go sth like:

The blacker the grapes, the sweeter the juice. The darker the chocolate, the richer the taste. Spread the word!

So why do they only see the colour on their faces? Why do we sometimes only see the surface of things and people? In the movie it had a gd ending, and in Singapore we don't really have this kind of discrimination. Plus the fact that everyone's more open to differences, or rather diversity... But I guess its undeniable that in certain parts of the world... some people still suffer in silence this way?

I think its really sad, that their own people don't accept them. Being isolated. Singled out for insults. Or just plain ignore you, your existence... Hmm... I guess when they say nothing is fair in this world, it really does mean sth...

Haven't been blogging cos was simply too busy... mostly with work, and just going to lessons. Well, I've decided I'm growing sick of the job and how its making me lag behind in my readings... So I shld be quitting soon. Cos I really cant get much wk done when I'm working for the whole evening and only have abt 2 hrs b4 that to do sch stuff. Sometimes printing notes, queuing, buying dinner etc... takes up alot time for me, not much left for reading, am I?

So yep... so far, my lessons... a bit boring honestly. Learning stuff but not as much as I hoped to. Feel a bit lost sometimes. I feel the concepts taught and topics brought up are too broad. There really isn't much focus. I hope the situation will improve aft I read all the req stuff in textbk. But so far, I think most pp experiencing the same thing like us...

Tml's my follow up appt for my braces. Been having it on for 6 wks! Woa. I've came so far, alrdy got used to it. haha... Its quite interesting to see how my teeth have moved, esp my canine teeth... Its now at the same row tog with the other teeth le! I have some qns to ask my dentist tml... Will see how it goes.

Today I was SO TEMPTED to eat LAKSA!!! But I din, endured... I'll wait and see how is the appt tml. If he changes the rubber bands and ceramic brackets, then next time b4 my appt I'll eat laksa, curry... etc woo! Cos even if they're stained it'll be changed anyway. No yellow, disgusting stuff on my teeth...

And you know wad, I miss Europe so much... France... saw the pics of my trip and also some of those from Yanping from her Facebook, the talk with Wenhui and Joyce that day abt the bits n pieces of our trip... makes me so nostalgic. Miss the days where I wake up in the nice Sports Hall, with the sun pouring in from the tall windows... then waking Veron up to get ready for sch... knocking on others' doors... the walk to sch... xiang nian!

watched fireworks @ Marina with Eugene just now... today's firewks were from Spain!

As always b4 the show there is this endless waiting. And Eugene happens to be not very tolerant abt waiting more than 15 mins. even if its for food. ha. So yep, since I'm not a very gd entertainer, he found ways to entertain himself also. Like talking to this photographer guy next to us. haha...

It start late though... like 9.10++ pm. And there's this lame lights show at the floating platform there with them playing with laser. I think everyone was VERY impatient by then cos pp waited so long leh... then u make us excited by counting down at the platform there... then u don't start the show but played with lazer?!?!

Lucky it was a great show... haha. Alot new firewks, some i can recognise from those i saw in France. 15 mins of craning my neck and almost 2 hrs plus of waiting... hmm. once a year, worth it ba... Last year and this year... Hmm. A bit of difference.
Last yr's show were incorporated with music. I could hear it even from across the merlion area at the 2nd bridge. But this yr... the music and everything were focused on the pp at the floating platform area. Music, lightings, angle of firewks... all for them.

Last year the crowds were more terrible. Too many pp. This yr there were crowd controls and all along Marina you see TP. all the way to City Hall Stn there's commandos at the traffic lights, police here and there. Wa... People were sometimes even running.. dash across the traffic lights.. Eugene said it was like a freakin war zone, which I must agree. The security's very tight! Poor things are those cars who kena stuck in the long line of jammed cars. Man... and the TP and commandos also add a bit of 'pressure' there...

2 weeks of sch so far. with 1 week of tutorials + presentations.

DAMN SIAN!

My HRC's core modules are quite boring... My tutors are nice but I think its the topic and the textbk tt's making things a bit dry. Plus its not helping that both are 4 hrs seminar. And they each have a rather difficult project they want us to complete. and there's damn a lot of READINGS! OMG... its like, we're only at the 1st/2nd lesson and there's alrdy readings... hai.

Boring and dry lessons aside. My electives are quite fun. Thank goodness... Forensic sci is interesting though I wish the chairs in NY Audi is not that comfortable. cinema-style cushioned seats that go all the way to ur head level... Wa... Slp condusive sia...

Psychology tut... We have a malay lady who's rather young. I like the way she conducts her tut. Quite fun, don't make me feel like falling aslp... Let's hope it stays this way...

I dunno how, but I know I gotta work hard this sem... Cannot cannot make my GPA fall liao. Must instead improve... So now? Gotta make myself adjust back. Mug gal, mug. Start reading those articles!!!

ytd was so fun! finally we got to go Sentosa tog! took quite a lot photos here and there but all in zhe's and pong's camera. hehe, you all must send us the link or sth ah...

we were so afraid it'll rain cos it drizzled a bit when while we were on the monorail. Who noes later on it was so scalding hot that I turned as red as a shao zhu and i retreated into the shelter (toilet... hehe) to go cool down and reapply sunblock on my face. I'm very glad I did cos after tt I wasn't so red and it worked out to become a tan. And it was also very unbearable to stand on the sand, let alone run! I think my feet were cooked to become well done...

anyway, we played like ultimate frisbee, volleyball (only hitting the ball to each other, not the real game though) and captain's ball! I tot we were quite enthu despite the sizzling weather leh. haha, later when more pp joined us like wenfoo, yong tat, elsie & tino, and rose, it was much more fun. Thks to all who turned up and make us all had a great work out and still have so much fun... haha.

And my fave photo of the day... happens to be of pong lying on the beach, tanning. haha... wa. i think after france my photog skills got improve a bit. haha... stupid kor, spoil the photo by saying the angle a bit obscene. Its ur brain obscene ba... hehehe. this might get me a beating...

I thought I should do Rush Hour 3 justice by separating it from my previous gloomy post simply cos its a very good movie! Those of you who's contemplating it please don't procrastinante anymore... Go grab your tickets and prepare youself for 1.5 hr of action and good humour. And I really mean good, not the lame 'ha. ha.' kind...

yup, it got the whole cinema people laughing and laughing especially at a few scenes which were rather good. haha. Of cos jacky chan's films always got NGs at the end. And it was equally entertaining too!

conclusion: WATCH RUSH HOUR 3!!!

felt better after talking to some people like kor, shuyi and eugene abt it. Well, people may say what a small world...

I say what a small, small world...

To think, after years, after putting everything down. behind. away. It all came back. Is this fate? Or is this some joke from above? I don't know how will I be dealing with it this time round, or what to think. What attitude to bring there next week. I only know that just now, everything came back in those flashback memories you see on movies n drama. bits and pieces slipping back.

well. what can I say. Yes, I don't care anymore. But whatever memories this jolted back and the nagging uneasiness in my mind from this morning till now... Even if I don't care now, I can't deny I used to. And yet, it still hurts somehow.

just want to get it all out of my mind. like... *poof*

so stupid.

how can I forget I need to submit a resume and cover letter next monday? when I alrdy did my resume in my laptop. nicely laid out and everything.

then I went to get my laptop battery to be taken a look by the technician in the com shop. with ALL my materials inside and NO BACKUP!

*slaps forehead*

What were you thinking gal?!?! OMG... Now gotta go back to the com shop and make a fool out of myself. ha. try to get it back so I can complete my assignment...

Anyway, I've been actively posting ads in the public folder in our sch's email account so I can sell my 1st yr stuff. woo... sold my financial calculator and biz law textbook. Still got other deals on hand but haven posted ads cos they're mostly still with the gal I exchanged textbks with... well! I shld be able to get them by next week. hehe.

first day

not as bad as i thought. comms seminar was surprisingly quite engaging. I think we're pretty lucky to get a good tutor. can see that he is very experienced and I shld say interested in this job. Cos he had gave up his banking career aft 22 yrs cos he could no longer stand the pressure. I think maybe this job in career services gave more meaning to his job? I sensed that coming from him... not the $$$ but the sense of accomplishment...

anyway. he's damn funny la. Kept making us laugh with his accounts of what he had met with when matching students with jobs etc. the student with bad breath. the student who cant drink and were made to attend dinners for networking etc. haha.

oh ya, and was damn coincidental to be in same class with veron and min! Totally did not plan it sia! haha...

but psychology lecture was a bit... hmm... monotonous in comparison. esp the 2nd part. Somehow the lecturers seemed inaudible sometimes. or maybe it was just my mind shutting down. hehe. let's hope it'll be more interesting ya. gotta do well for this!!!

needless to say there are always endless queues and crowds on first days in school. my morning bus ride. the lunch queue. the printing queue at the library. argh... cant stand it.

last nite went back to Bosses with Eugene. we had wanted to go crystal jade, at JP de. But I called up to chk and they said no reservations on Sat, and I sort of dread e queue that I see quite a lot of times waiting for tables outside the restaurant.

then this brainwave hit me, let's go to Bosses! Voila. haha... yeah, cos I think Bosses is much nicer than Crystal Jade with more variety of La Mian. And the prices are so comparable. So yep, we both ordered Beef Brisket La Mian. But mine is dry with a special red oil. Not spicy though. Quite like the way the beef taste... tender and tears easily in your mouth - yummy! And of cos ordered the xiao long bao. then also showed him the classy toilet. haha... its very seldom we can 'go toilet tog'. LOL

there was a funny incident in the toilet. this grp of aunties trying to find out how to make the water from the tap come out so they can wash their hands. So the three of them kpt slipping their hands in and out at the sink, but to no avail. I was quite amused looking at them while queuing. don't they know there's a sensor? If not at the sink area then its like at ur waist or leg or sth? So happens the sensor is at e waist area in the center of the sink, and the 3 of them all stand at e side. haha! of cos no water la... so i just went up to them aft a few mins and put my hand on e sensor there so they can wash their hands. so LOL. then eugene explain to them why while it was my turn to go use the washrm. haha... all the while inside can hear them 'oh...', 'ah...' haha, trying so hard nt to laugh out inside. hehe.

oh ya, u all rem that time our dinner at Bosses, we had this snack b4 the dinner? Wa. after the dinner then we realised they charged us for it... and its not cheap sia. $3.80... gee, I thought its like those peanuts etc, complimentary de lo... oh well. the food's good, so is the ambience. and we enjoyed ourselves. I guess that's wad matters (:

this morning I woke up and when washing my face I realised sth. my face was like much smoother cos i used to have some blackheads on my cheek areas and they were evidently lesser now. hmm... amazing! Just one night? Fairy godmother visited?

No la, I put it down to the banana mask. haha, cos its the only thing I had done other than my usual skincare regime ytd. So, I guess though its messy its worth another try again? hehe. shall see how's e results the next time. =P

how time flies... Its been 3 mths & we'll be starting sch in a few days' time. I still rem how ecstatic I was after my exams finished cos I knew I had a whole 3 mths of hols and a trip to Euro waiting for me... And now its alrdy over!

Was checking my timetable for next week and its pretty slack of cos, being no tutorials... But on Monday there's alrdy an assignment that will be posted online lo. And gotta hand up on Tues de. Gee... so anxious to make us wk ah? Saw all the course outlines. and schedules etc posted online... A bit starting to dread liao, the projects tt's bound to be coming up... Haiyo.

Btw, I've gotten both my electives I've registered for. Woo! So happy... Forensic science seems pretty interesting from the schedule. They even included this sentence that says:

Pls note that there might be changes to the schedule if our guest lecturers are called to the crime scene at the last min.

wa...

Going to enjoy my last few days at home properly! Grabbed a few books in e library just now, I think it shld keep me pretty occupied. Haha, oh ya... Just now tried making my own facial mask from natural ingredients at home. The banana scrub mask... Eh. A bit messy... not recommended, so i wont give u all the 'recipe' ya... haha.

besides my job in the evening, I'm actually quite enjoying my day at home. =P I guess its really a good break b4 sch starts for me... Yeah... not thinking abt the job alrdy. no worries abt that.

Spent a good deal of time transferring stuff from the internet & my laptop to my phone. Cos aft upgrading the software, the Nokia PC Suite software finally compatible with my phone le. Woo! Lots of new themes & games.

Btw peeps, if you would be so kind... especially my friends from uni/GSS... I most probably alrdy lost your contacts from my phone aft servicing... If you're free, drop me a sms? Thks loads!

I think I havent been updating about my calling job? Cos I've been working in the evenings from 7-930pm. Well... Its ok, just calling up alumni members to update their particulars. Does this sound too innocent? Ok ok, there's some more to it of cos... Gotta ask them for some donations lo. Pledges, they call it. $9/hr simply cant be so easy right? =P

Last night was good. I had the highest call rate and highest total amt of pledges. Was pretty lucky to meet people who were willing to donate... $410 in total, wahaha. Of cos you feel good abt it cos you're helping the school ma! I didn't noe u need so much money to run a sch. 80 million, for goodness sake!

Anyway, Eugene came to fetch me from work and I was alrdy quite guilty abt him being quite lost in NTU. Quite a natural outcome since its his first time in, so I had to walk to SBS (Sch of Biological Science) to find him. Wa... Thought can eat Mac with him in sch. How were I to know they close so early during our hols? *even guiltier* So we went out to get some food since he alrdy came, which makes everything quite rushed cos it was 10 when we start to leave. And er, lost for a while. haha. Cos I dunno the rds in sch well. And my contacts make my night vision much poorer (astig)... He gotta reach camp by 0000. And he was back at the camp at 1158, after some speed and good luck with the traffic lights... If he is late I think I'll nv stop apologising... I dun want to noe the consequences sia... More duties? Charges?

Anyway, I saw Joyce's blog and her entry abt the NDP Preview... *envious* IT LOOKS SO FUN LO! ): Boohoo, I wanna go too... the stars torchlight look so cute, haha... hai. Hope next yr can get the tickets ba...

dunno wad to say. No amt of dots or sighs will express how SIAN I AM!

just when I thought I was so lucky to get a job in a HR dept. so enthusiastic abt learning everything and stuff. tried to learn when I was taught stuffs. did my best at wad I was told to do, even if it was outside my job scope. Aye, I was supposed to be an admin assistant, tt's wad I was to do. I did not ask to be landed in a company to do HR cum receptionist cum secretarial jobs leh. And they were the one who said I can go back during my term time to learn more on the job.

my manager just told me she thinks I'm not experienced enuff for the job... she had underestimated the job scope and realised she nd someone who have experience in HR.

I dunno how my colleague thinks though... its so inconvenient to talk when the manager can pop up any moment since our work area is open. And anyway... my colleague can say anything she wants since I'm leaving hor? And its so qiao that today she just confessed to me she don't like our manager a lot actually cos a lot of times she just fly into one of her infamous tempers unreasonably and scolded her without regarding her pride.

Well... just enjoy the next few days I have b4 sch starts lo...

my phone had this recurring hanging prob so much that I felt compelled to go have service it today. Cos my warranty's ending on 31st July. hehe. So last min... Or shld I say wad good timing... Nah, actually the prob surfaced quite some time ago, then for a while it seemed ok. Now its back - worse than ever. Talk abt the calm b4 a storm...

The bad news is I cant collect it today and I don't have a spare phone. So I'll be phoneless till tml aft I collect it from work. Let's see if I can survive this long w/o a phone ya? They say people today are too dependent on technological gadgets. I wonder how true is that for me... Though I think I might like being 'uncontactable' for a period. hehe =P

Anyway, later will be starting my 2nd job. As a caller to update some alumni details I think. Easy money, wahahaha. $9/hr in sch. But this is only for a mth, as I have said b4... Wonder how it goes... Shall update tonight! (Or maybe tml... =P )

went to this prata shop in thomson with eugene... hmm. the cheese prata was quite unlike the one we had in SA! I think its cos they scrimped on e cheese la. Cos in sch they only sell like $1.20 and the cheese so little sia. But the one there is quite reasonable, $1.50 and the cheese tastes so nice with the prata! Though a pity is I am still having some aches from having adjusted my braces on thurs. So i had some difficulty chewing the crispy prata properly. Need to eat damn slowly with careful, precise bites so i don't bite till my whole jaw feel like it can drop... And sad... no curry for me... (well, unless I can bear to part with $101.90 when my braces kena stained la. puis)

then went to AMK Hub. I nv went at nite b4... I didn't noe there can be so many pp there! The carpark was overcrowded... We had to go all e way to e rooftop will we can get a spot, and it was only when one car was leaving then we got it. Even the rooftop was full sia! mainly just go there walk walk, but I was also looking out for G2000 cos I heard from minshan there's a big sale there and I think its a gd chance to get a jacket there!

ya lo, so much reductions, and I will ultimately need one for presentations etc. So might as well... Was trying to decide between 2 jackets... One black and one dark grey. Of cos black one is more easy to match but the grey one is more fitting leh. So yup... got a dark grey one. Anyone wanna get a jacket go G2000 quick b4 the sizes run out ya?

Went back to SAJC after work. Rush, rush, rush! Had to wait for a manager to get a list of the names of confirmed interview candidates from me. And it was so nearing 530pm - my knock off time - and he was 'very far away' (so he says, in the plant somewhere I guess) so I was a bit kan chiong sia. haha, lucky I managed to leave in time so i don't miss the bus. Surprisingly I was early, haha.

Anyway, the play was avg lo, some of the actors can't be really heard. Over the music or over the murmuring... What makes the evening great was seeing old friends and catching up with them. Haha, kelvin nv failed to remind me how long he had known eugene(since kindergarten) and how close their block is that eug can peer into his room if he wants.

My table is so messy I cant really stand it, now maybe I can diregard it. But when sch starts and I nd more space on my table for work... I might have problem liao. Cos I didn't used to have make up and contact lens stuff on my table. Can u imagine the clutter on my table now... Gee... must do sth eh?

boss in Shanghai.

manager on MC.

colleague on 1/2 day leave.

I am alone in the office.
Yep! OMG. I am alone in the MD office, I hope the rest of today wont have much visitors or calls to give me surprises. Alrdy the courier man is late, I was supposed to wait for him to deliver an impt doc then go to e pantry for lunch. Apparently he is very late, I was too hungry. Ran up to e pantry to warm up my lunch n quickly ran down.

Cos there's a lot of confidential docs here, and my colleague left her com on for me as I still do nt have access to certain systems n she nd my help to do data entry. If I'm away for too long it'll lock itself. And of course, I don't have the password to unlock it! It'll be a tad too troublesome. she gotta reveal her password!

So now, got a list of things to do. Arrange for interviews, courier this, email that. blah, blah. Just hope no trouble ya... Then i can knock off on time n go meet the CS peeps for our annual production. Havent seen them for quite some time!

been busy cos of wk, so seldom come online. Just came home, had dinner and watched tv. Or just read my emails, and weekend has been so fun!

Woo... Sunday was a sinful day with lots of good food. Haha. Went back to Yacht Club for brunch with Eugene. Its been a long time since we were there - sort of had our 1st date there when we weren't tog yet. And this e first time we went back after we're tog. Hmm... Too bad I cant have the laksa or anything spicy there, cos it looks good! Had fish & chips which were quite nice, big portion.

Then met Pong & Ler for a drink while we wait for the rest to arrive at Vivo. Wa... White Dog Cafe got a great view of the sea! And the drinks are not bad... U guys shld try the floats, Volcano!

Dinner at Bosses/ Hei She Hui was even better. Thks to Ler for introducing us the restaurant. Now got a better alternative to Crystal Jade, dont have to go there just cos of craving for xiao long bao liao... nice decor and the toilet's like those mirror maze in carnival. haha, full length mirrors for the doors and everything. And the tea... haven done sth so civilised in so long liao... haha. Tea appreciation... no la, we ordered chinese tea to go with the food. hehe.

And of cos, not to mention the short island get-away at Sentosa aft dinner. Too bad ah pa cant join us... Anyway, Thong Ler... hope u enjoyed the simple night. Though not as happening as it might have been if it was a day at Sentosa (shucks... stupid weather...), hope u enjoyed it!

The great weekend makes me so reluctant to go back to wk today... Talk abt Monday blues... haish. lucky thing was today damn slack in e office... wahaha. Had this walk-in candidate for an interview this afternn n Grace asked me to go sit in with her so I can learn. I must say I'm quite thkful she has been so willing to teach me everything. Although I was supposed to be there to help ease her load, she nv fails to rem I was to do a HRC course and will often show n teach me stuff tt I'll be doing in e HR line in future.

So yep... I'm learning on e job... Must really thk my lucky stars got such a nice colleague n employer...

Shuyi: HAPPY BIRTHDAY! hope you like the watch! <3 heh, we'll have ur 'dinner' the next time round ya...

The Last (Spoilers ahead for Harry Potter & the Deathly Hallows)

Finished up the book last night... Was slowed down here n there cos there were quite a few interruptions in the afternoon. haha. Very anxious to finish it, so I had skimmed thru some parts, hehe. I'm glad Potter didn't die, same goes for Hermione and Ron and the other members of the DA. But Fred had to die and George lost a ear. I think if there was another book, the grief that George & the Weasleys suffered would be portrayed inside ba. Can imagine how difficult it is... for ur own twin to die, and moreover Mrs Weasley has always been protective of her kids. I was so afraid she would also die when she dueled Bellatrix la! Lucky thing was she managed to kill her... I guess when provoked... a mother will be pushed to the limits to do sth for her child ba...

Becos I thru the book, too eager to find out the ending... there are few bits n pieces which I'll have to piece tog upon my 2nd reading... Which I think will have to wait a while. With work coming the next few wks, shld be rather difficult for me to pick it up again.

Well... supposed to meet Eugene for brunch b4 meeting you guys for Thong Ler's bday dinner... he hasn't wake up yet. haha... Shall go give him a morning call liao. Ta-ta guys...

our 3rd

Eugene just smsed me to call him and I did. He had to down beer cos of 'superior pressure'. haha, was feeling seh alrdy and can sense it in the phone. He's talking a bit slower and slurring his speech... Lucky thing is its in his own camp and he doesn't have to drive...

This week's a busy one for him and so happens today is our 3rd month together. Well, if u wanna be more exact 2 mths cos for 1 mth I was away in France. hehe. Managed to squeeze some time out last nite so we can meet b4 the weekend. He might be activated so he dont want to take chances. Well, both of us are not those who are very particular about dates and anniversaries. Its just sth that mark when the journey started for us. Not a MUST-celebrate thingy.

We talked abt this topic b4 - sometimes its tiresome to celebrate every 'significant' date in the relationship. 99 days, 999 days etc etc. Some girls like to fuss over their bf celebrating this day and that day and throw tantrums when their bf forgot... Eug told me his army frens sometimes scared their gf asking them do you rem what day is XXX? haha, cos the wrong ans and THAT'S IT!

Isn't it more meaningful to treasure what you have with each other now and look fwd to what you have in the future... Rather than being angry with your bf abt some date.

So... 3 mths down the road. I can only say... I'm glad (: Glad that after one soured relationship and juggling a year in the university... I've learnt to manage my time better. manage my feelings better. There are times where emotions can overwhelm you and make you do or say things that you can never retract. I know now, with the experience gathered, I can be more matured this time. But, I still let myself 'go wrong' once... hee dear, sorry about that... gave u a scare le.

And I'm also glad... that Eugene is so understanding and matured. I must say, for someone in a 1st relationship, he is doing it very well. So dear, thks for everything so far... (: muacks. love you.

First day at work

Today went on quite smoothly (: for the morning did the usual sorting and filing of some documents. Then afternoon Grace showed me more things that I might be doing for the coming 2 wks and e rest of my time there. When sch starts I'll be going back there on my off day in sch to help them with some of the work. Cos although the co. is quite big, the HR dept only has 2 pp - the manager and an executive (Grace). And Grace also has to support the MD (Managing Director) with secretarial roles. Which explains why she's so busy.

Anyway, the people there are real friendly and doesn't seem to draw that much boundaries between the 'employees' and 'managers'. Grace had introduced me to almost all the employees working indoors (nt in the plant) from the normal perm. staff to the big shot directors. Haha. Even the MD! wa... but i like the culture there. There's a very gd mix of people from Germany, Japan, China, India, New Zealand and of cos S'pore.

So I have to do normal admin duties plus sometimes act as a secretary if Grace is not around. This is the part I gotta get adjusted to cos I've nv been a secretary b4 and I might even have to face big shots from the head office cos I'm working in the MD office. Its ok, means more challenges and I get to learn more things. Plus, in time to come it'll be useful cos I'll be learning HR stuff too anyway!

But... they're real flexible abt my wking hrs. Just now Grace asked me what time would I like to start and end work, which give me quite a shock. haha, she says she's fine abt me arriving at a time I'm comfortable with. I hope not much big shots coming for the next 2 wks! :P

Just when I thought I was destined to be slacking the rest of my hols at home, I got a positive reply from 2 job offers. And one of them was quite surprising becos if I were to be accepted, they shld have called like last wk?

Yep, I'll be wking for the rest of my hols in a HR dept somewhere in the Jurong Industrial area. The manager seems to be quite nice, she said if I wanted to learn more she might even be able to arrange for me to sit in their interview sessions so i can get to learn more HR stuff. And... I'm paid $8/hr. woo!

the 2nd job is only for a mth, and only a few days of the week. Mon-Thurs and Sun. starts like 7pm in the evening till 10pm. I have to call up some alumni members to update some stuff. Basically its just calling people and I get pais $9/hr. Yeah, I accepted it though its like 3 hrs a day cos its in sch. which is pretty damn near. so i dont mind like popping over after dinner since its so close. Or I can stay back n do some work in sch then wait for it to start. Either way... its some easy money. yep... gotta work hard if i wanna travel I guess.

Office wk starts tml... so i have like more than 2 wks there? :P

I AM DAMN BORED!

Hai. I am waiting got the DivX player to be downloaded so i can watch my series of Heroes I got from Wanting today. I'm getting bored to death at home. Tonight of all nights feel so restless... Took a 2 hr nap just now, cant slp early... Man, I hope I can quicklystart watching!

A number of things to keep myself occupied:

1. Read Half-blood Prince since Deathly Hallows is coming

2. Make sth for Eugene? This Thurs happens to be our 3rd mth tog. Gee... time flies. Making sth for him will sure kill a lot of time n might be a nice surprise.

3. Bake brownies? Nah, I cant eat much brownies now...

As you can see... this is a much crappy entry. I'm getting bored to tears...

Since my laptop is one fo the 'headquarters' for the pics we taken during GSS... Here goes, more memories of the trip...

The fantastic dinner of crepes and sorbet in Troyes: I think this was where we started bonding together...

Unlucky day in Versailles: raining and no shelter to eat lunch. 4 to a brolly



After walking miles we were finally at Chinatown! Loads of pp talking in Canto there.

This was in London, I forgot what's the name of this place... heh heh. So sorry, we were on our way to Chinatown!


At the rose gardens beside the Chateau in Compeigne with Adeline: we couldn't find the roses, wonder why?

met the GSS peeps last nite for Seoul Garden at Marina Square. Finally, after many 'detours' we finally could meet. It was nearly cancelled... lucky we could still meet as planned. haha, was fun of cos... eating and chatting tog. A bit like the GSS days? just that now we're back in familiar grounds, and some of us have grown to become very good friends. We also got some stuff in e queue coming up... Sentosa next week! Really hope can wk out, if not when sch starts, everyone will be busy. North-spiners and South-spiners may not even cross each other's path in sch. So sad...

Anyway, we tried to exchange some photos using my laptop n vincent's. So now my com is full of almost everyone's pics and gotta pass it to e rest. You cant imagine how many GB we all got. haha... I think I shld be developing total of 200-250 photos... and is mostly 'faces' not 'scenery'... haha. If I could I would develop more le... but $$$ constraint! :P

We were quite enthu last nite, the photo-sharing after dinner lasted till like 11. We were playing Murderer at the Roof Terrace in Esplanade while waiting for e photos. haha... another memory from the GSS France days. Nights, rather... Nights of card games, chatting sessions and murderer after dinner... How slack!!! then even when we went back, we still log on till like early morning. I was among the last to leave... at 4am. Can imagine how shag i am, woke up at 8++ to meet Eugene for breakfast. He had this sudden craving for the yuan yang at the Wan Zai HK Restaurant...

He dont have any more duty for the rest of this month... Shld be more free ba? (:

A lot of coincidences lately... Saw two ex-colleagues from SH on Fri & ytd. Dear Sarinah's now wking in Sentosa! So fun... as island supervisor. She seems to be happier... new haircut. haha... so cute. hope she and her abang doing well tog... haha. both of them cant recognise me. Stared at me for a few seconds until I say my name out then they noticed the changes... My contacts, my braces... hahaha. So cute to see their stunned expressions. LOL...

I guess I shld be expecting more of this when sch reopens... shall be interesting to see the reactions... haha!

woke up this morning to have my plans ruined 1st thing in e morning. When I've finally got the time to go swim, it had to rain! GRRRR..! so yeah... idled around as usual. reading this book now - Undomestic Goddess. Having flipped thru the first few pages... found that its quite nice, another light read. About this lawyer who's had all her time devoted to her job. NO LIFE! and how she flopped cos of a major mistake and found her way ard in her life.

Previously read The Diary of a Manhattan Call Girl... another light read but, I dont like it that much. Too much stuff abt sex and call girls i thought, most imptly... I dont like the ending. Its so abrupt. I didn't even know it ended! until I turn the page over and found it surprisingly empty... then did i realised it ENDED. talk abt cliffhanger... I literally jumped over the cliff.

Got this job offer abt a receptionist cum admin assistant. All the while last wk I've been trying to get work, and now that I got this call with a gd pay and location... I'm hoping I wont get it. Aiya, what exactly do i want? haha... I'm so conflicting myself. I guess I just wanna 'nua' at home.

Going to watch Harry Potter with Eugene tml! yipee! Eug surprised me though, he had told me gotta wait till the wkends cos there's a last min insurance talk that he gotta stay back for. Now he had just called and said he applied for leave liao. haha... and he's booking the tics online, so its tml! Anyway... Sorry abt this, NH crowd: I know we sort of have a unwritten pact to watch HP every yr de. But lately the movies either I dont like or he watched, and I promised him I'll watch a movie w him when I come back... Sorry to bang seh u all!

I came online wanting to blog about alot of things but I'm not like having writers' block... GRR! Anyway... These few days I've been brushing my teeth more than ever. Trying to avoid food that will colour my teeth. As best as I could. haha... cos of my ceramic braces ma, cant afford to have it stained. so after a meal at home usually I'll just go brush my teeth. And i think my record was on Sunday, I stayed home whole day and I counted how many times I brushed - 7!!!

I saw Joyce's blog about their 2 wks in various parts of Europe. WA... super gian to go back. And have this streak of regret abt not extending with them... it seems really fun... Although it was a bit hurried... Hai. Nvm... all the more I want to go back next time... haha. A good reason to I guess... I wonder if we go on Free & Easy tours would we get the same experience as they do. Or rather, will SG's tour grps go to e same destinations like London's...

Anyway, mum's been wking at JP at one of those blue pushcarts selling costume jewellery. She was telling me how she managed to stop some sch girls from stealing some rings when she was wking... And I do not realise how brazen these teenagers can be until I hear for myself. Apparently when their attempt to slip away some trinkets was foiled, they decided to come back again. This time on another shift... so my mum doesn't recognise her and her colleague dunno abt it. But this time they weren't lucky enough. The neighbouring stall's uncle who were selling watches saw them behave suspiciously so he kept a watch on them.

At busy periods it was simply to busy at e pushcarts so its quite kind of the uncle to help them out, he caught them while they were walking away, red-handed - one had 5 rings that cost $5 each in her hands lo... Can u imagine how daring they are? And seeing how determined they were to steal sth, coming back the 2nd time like that, it simply shows that its not a mere impulsive act. Neither is it a childish dare from classmates. Ridiculous... they were lucky lo, the uncle didn't turn them in to e police or the mgmt cos he said its not his stuff it seems not right to interfere but he gave them a stern warning...

Have you all ever wondered why we always bear to spend more on presents for other people than ourselves sometimes? Like we wouldn't mind buying this expensive wallet or shirt for our friends or bf/gf but when we think of buying it for ourselves... we cant bear to part with the money? haha. Well, if you're those that's opposite of this then ok lo... Skip this paragraph ba =P

Anyway... I met Veron, Guo Min and Candy to shop in town. OK, once again I was reminded of the fact that I didn't buy presents for Guo Min and she bought for me. Honestly... I really did consider buying. But in France there wasn't much I could get, and London was too expensive. So I only bought for my NH friends... and it didn't cost a lot... Besides, at that point of time I was more worried after my post-trip expenses... My contact lenses, my camera... things that nd $$$ that gotta be fixed. I didn't expect the camera to work itself out. And my lens... thk god, can make only one side... if not I gotta spend like ove a hundred bucks. So yeah, can understand my plight ba?

Finally bought a tube for this long top I bought at Mango sale... then I dunno why got this urge to buy sth for Eugene... add sth to his wardrobe. Not that its not working well... haha. We were at Pull & Bear trying to find sth suitable for him... Polo tee? T-shirt? Finally settled on sth which actually caught the girls' attention first. The light blue tee with some prints and these words: Yacht Club... I absolutely had no reason not to buy it... Nice colour, sth he'll wear, new arrival... and Yacht Club was actually where we went to for our 1st date, b4 we started anyway... so yeah... bought it...

Also looking for shoes... and bag. Nearly bought a brown tote though, I tot the price is rather reasonable aft e sale and the design's not bad. But Guo Min said her fren is selling sth similar and at a lower price... Hmm... why not? Just take a look no harm anyway... =P

you have no idea how sian it can be... or maybe you can. You're one of those like me... slacking my time away. and ENJOYING it... wahaha. watching tv, idling online, reading my books borrowed from Ash-jie... and later I'll be shopping with Veron. woo!

honestly, the search for temp jobs is like harvesting no fruits. its all too far... how come i kp getting the oil industries jobs? There's this job that gotta bring me to some ISLAND and its not Jurong Island some more. I gotta go Harbourfront and take ferry there... My god, is it some coincidence or what... anyway, rejected it... not worth the travelling time.

last nite was very busy in MSN... bt I'm glad for all e catching up. Esp with the GSS pp, now that we're all back from Europe, can chat and slack tog etc. haha... there was this big grp convo and we were chatting away like we used to in France... sadly, I think when sch starts, the novelty of this shld die away ba. Some is bound to drift apart... Like wenhui, I'm surprised how short her memory span is... when she is such an intelligent gal. Maybe her memory saved for more 'impt' stuff. haha...

You know, I'm so bored that I volunteered to help my MJ kaki do his project... Mkting project. but its quite vague. just to mkt any product. And no limits to the market even. Like just to cars or laptops etc. ANYTHING. 5000 report. I still haven got the question yet. But i think its going to make me occupied, so be it! Haha... see la, how bored I am...

just woke up and now's eating my breakfast... Wa. I was amazed that I actually dreamt I was back in France. With Adeline! haha! I thought I had adjusted back... I guess going to fetch the rest back from the airport on Fri triggered memories of the trip? Its so funny... I rem me n Adeline were also deciding which flavour of sorbet to get in the Piccard frozen food supermkt. And its the same thing in my dream except the supermkt's much larger... =P

Well, kind of adjusting to my braces le. Now I can bite more properly than past few days. Cos it had been hard to chew on the more solid food with the back teeth hurting. Now its not so much of the back teeth giving me probs, but my canine teeth... cos its bracket is pushing against my lip... Argh. Cut it terribly... Cant open my mouth too wide in case I aggravate it again. haha... Wa... Wonder when will that lip heal...

hmm... I'm glad I went to wk for the 3 days... at least it gave me a bit more financial stability. Cos these few days I've been spending quite a lot I realised... Luckily I didn't spend that much in Europe, so I don't have that much qualms abt spending here. Although of course, there is this tendency to convert everything to Euros and you tell yourself "hey, this is cheap!"

Apparently its only something to 'deceive' yourself... cos hey, you are in SINGAPORE! not Euro anymore gal... But anyway, been meeting up friends and kakis so ya, spending the money on food... So it doesn't matter. Cos I like catching up with them... and just hanging out. Keep up the contact while we can, b4 sch starts and everyone gets busy... well, tonight meeting my kakis for dinner at Newton. They're real accomodating and wa... seriously touched. Cos we were actually supposed to go for steamboat buffet. But since I just put on my braces... I couldn't afford to eat that much. They change venue n food... wa... So yep... 07/07/07 and we're meeting at 7pm. think they're gg to look for table 7... haha

well, ytd was my unofficial last day of work. Cos we're still not very sure if there's a nd for me to go back next wk. The pp there are quite nice actually. And its just so qiao that I was working in the HR department... of cos, 3 days is not enuff to learn anything abt HR. But at least I saw how they operate, and how the company recruits staff. AND... got contacts liao ma. If nd to go there for PA I can drop them an email... wahaha.

today... is the day I put on my braces. haha. went there early in the morning not knowing wad to expect. Wondering how long it'll take, how pain is it, etc. But it completely took me by surprise... It wasn't as pain as I expected it to be, in fact, I actually think its not painful at all. I guess this is wad the extra money is about... less pain and less discomfort. But of cos, longer treatment... but my doc did warn me next few days might be pain though... see how it goes...

Anyway, the wire is still quite fine now so its not very obvious from afar. Of cos, if u're like sitting beside me or talking to me face-to-face you can see it la.. and gotta get used to havin these little things inside my mouth... plus eating with them inside. Its quite a chore. Gotta clean my mouth aft eating... ah... the little things that I gotta get used to...

today is my first day of work. Got e lobang on Friday evening for a 1-day assignment at Jurong Island. Its admin wk and most likely will be extending my wk accordingly to the work load there.

the HR executive was supposed to meet and drive me to e island. I found her quite a nice woman... =) very easy to chat with and alrdy jokes around with me in a sms b4 we even met. She's also from NTU... B&F. She later became my mentor at wk and I was to wk in the HR department... Ha. What a great coincidence right. But so far I only sorted and filed documents, dont have much exposure to HR stuff.

I really gotta mention how tight the security is in Jurong Island. Well... even b4 I got there, strictly spking. According to a new policy, no more temp passes are issued. So temp wkers and contractors like me gotta change our IC for a pass to enter the island every single day we're going in... And the queue in the morning is long de lo... The pass expires on the dot when I knock off. And this island pass I gotta surrender at the company's security post for a visitor pass... That's not all, when I go bk home aft wk, I am supposed to get bk my IC right? Well... aft I retrieved the island pass, I gotta make the bus uncle stop at e departure hall so I can get my IC b4 leaving e island. And YES... the whole bus gotta wait for me... So paiseh sia. Lucky just now no queue... If got queue the bus will go n I gotta take a public bus...

The sad thing is the bus shuttles between Jurong Island & JE... not boon lay! A detour for me... My only 'complaint' is the security and the shuttle bus lo... Other than tt, actually I quite enjoy e job. Cos its slack and my colleagues are nice to me. Just file only... hehe =P Ket's hope they can get me some miraculous pass so i don't have to be at e mercy of the queues and the shuttle bus uncle every morning of wk...

back from my MJ kaki chalet! well, wasn't expecting myself to slp much and it was really the case. 1st nite we din slp at all cos we stayed up playing cards (most of the adults play MJ with $$ de so we nv join them) and chatting till day like 9+ in the morning.

Only caught like 2 hrs of slp then woke up again. 2nd nite was more rowdy cos its full strength - those who're busy with family, wk etc will be turning up then. BBQ with my kakis are always fun and delicious cos I nv have to go near the pit. wahahaha. And they catered the food from BBQ wholesaler so it was just putting the food down to cook, dont have to do much prep.

But... I stayed in the chalet thru out the 3D2N... didn't step out at all... ha. Read my book sometimes while they play MJ, or just watch TV. We watched Jacky Wu's variety show tog and had a lot of gd laughs tog. Then Eugene also joined us to stay for e nite though he was engaged with earlier cos our kakis were quite eager to see him.

Showed some kakis my photos from the trip. They were envious that we got a chance to go Europe for exchange and travelling. Indeed, I didn't regret spending a sum of money on that either. Really broadened my horizons alot. Plus I came back with a bag full of wonderful memories and made new friends from other faculties... OMG. Like, finally? haha. other than those from SA/NHSS, I only have a few friends from other fac...

One of my kakis told us a creepy encounter he had at his camp during his NS days. Shocked me out of my wits tt such a thing to happen. And its so near us... =S the Jalan Bahar camp...

Anyway, tml I'm working at this company in Jurong Island for a one-day assignment. Might have to extend till like Wed or Fri. Taking it up since I dont have anything at hand now anyway... And no harm having more $$ with you right... hehe.

Ah... Seeing the date reminds me of sth... the GST hikeis offically effective... today is July 1st peeps...