I got caught in the crossfire during dinner... was just an innocent chat between me n my bro. asking him if he wanna freelance for my friend and he said he might not be that pro enough to be paid for his editing cos so far he learnt only e basics. end up my dad picked up this line and asked him why not learn etc. Aiya... boils down to the fact that my dad doesn't understand our way of lives and studies. And when we try to explain he cant get it, so end up getting hot and bothered. my bro also lost his patience trying to explain to him. And worse... dad brought in my bro's gaming issue again... and there u go, that's the catalyst to *boom*

by then... u alrdy have 2 angry men at e dinner table. me n mum ate our dinner, once in a while chipping in trying to make peace. there was once my mum n i were talking to each other, with my bro n dad practically shouting at each other at the other side of the table. haha... we were so zai right. We could still CHAT. then another time was when my bro and I were talking by ourselves while dad was raising his voice at us. we were, of course, talking in english... now dont u wish sometimes ur parents can dont understand wad u're trying to say while saying stuff under their noses... wahaha. this is when ur parents dunno english is actually a good thing. (but mind u, my mum noes a bit so we still try to use chim eng when we nd to talk ourselves)

Me: This is why I am starting to feel rebellious nowadays.

Bro: Ya la, I dont care alrdy... I will just talk back, he just dont understand.

(Dad: (in the background) You always use the computer to play play play...)

well... I know its rude la, haha... but how to calm him down when he's blasting right. the only thing i can do is distract my bro so he wont talk back anymore. and at the end, when my bro walked off feeling pissed, I tried to explain to my dad wad my bro had been doing n wad his game is abt. But aiya... he fuming alrdy where got listen, ended up getting shout at. Then my mum also give up... now we have one angry father, one couldn't-be-bothered son, one helpless mother and one caught-in-between daughter lo...

Hmm... not feeling sad or depressed abt this la. Kinda used to this occasional tiff cos of my bro's gaming. What I am trying to say is this time its really not his fault. This kind of thing is not just one incident... its snowballed from the past. Cos of the generation gap between us. At least mum has aunts and my cousin to discuss and tell her more abt our sch and life inside. And though she's still old-fashioned in her thinking sometimes, most of the times she understand. But dad, being outside working most of the time, and is those kind of dad who doesn't and dunno how to show concern to his kids. (you noe... those olden days where fathers have ego lots bigger than the size of their fists) Its hard to communicate.

So what is the moral of the story? I knew long ago, and that is why I wont want to repeat this 'mistake' when it is my time. I'll want to have kids early so there's no communication barrier and age/generation gap. And the magic word is - communicate...