I had came across these cute & funny baby videos from Youtube when I was reading Qianhua's blog some time ago... And these are some of my fave... haha. You guys might have seen b4,
But I never fail to get a good laugh everytime I see these videos... And we wouldn't complain abt giving cute one more glance, would we?

"Blood"

His facial expressions are so cute!

"Baby Ally"

She has such good imitations of an adult... won't spoil the fun by telling u how. Watch it!

What a baby did to get attention...

"Funny Baby"

This might be 'obsene' to some, but I hope you understand why I find it hilarious...

I totally cannot understand why this thing can happen... OMG!

last nite I was in quite bad condition, emotionally. felt like talking to someone abt it and here comes my kor, soonhui... Had one of those heart-to-heart talks with him abt friends and friendships... About those who are and those who had been.

when things like this (or chats like this) happen, it nv fails to bring back those memories. Somehow I feel I did an incredible job of getting over it. From being disappointed, sad, hurt etc (whatever you feel when a friendship or friend fails you) to being how I feel now - neutral, numb. And even though now I see her on a regular basis in class, I treat her like just another classmate, passerby, stranger. I know, some friends are concerned abt this, but... you guys know how I feel abt this, thks for ur concern but save the effort ba. I will not give in and let myself have another chance of getting hurt de. Hadn't they say once bitten, twice shy... I was bitten more times than that.

I went to re-read my blog entry last nite and realised I should have used a better word to describe what happened. Not drifted apart, but forgotten I guess. She smsed me to apologised for everything and say it was not organized by them but her bf. And it was a last min thing and etc. Actually... I'm disappointed at not only her, but the whole bunch of them, cos its not just one or two but the whole clique's that was there. She knew there was no excuse for what happened and apologised again.

Gal, (or gals) I dunno if you would be able to see this but here's my thoughts abt this incident... You know how my friendship(s) had failed b4 becos I trusted you gals enough to confide in u all. You gals also know how I felt abt things like this but yet... How did a thing like that happened I really dunno. But what hurts is not that I wasn't there to enjoy the fun and everything, but how... I was forgotten like some unimportant information by the lot of you. When its a whole lot of you, rather than only one... It hurts a lot more. I dunno how am I going to be able to talk and laugh with you all without remembering without this tugging at the back of my mind. I am not those type who will bury everything and pretend nothing happen, let it pass. I am those that will lose trust in someone when he/she did enuff damage to lose it. Forgetting it or not is another matter. But I will definitely let u know how I feel, so yep.

Am I making a big deal out of everything? No I don't think so

just went to do some exploring on facebook and found stuff that sort of breaks my heart. Wa... Sad... How come like that? I knew of the bday last week and was asked if I wanted to share the present. On Mon I smsed to ask if they were celebrating cos I had a hunch most likely they would... at the very least meet for dinner or sth. No reply... no sms or call. But lo and behold... there was indeed something afterall.

Drifting apart is something I have experienced ever since secondary school but experiencing it again doesn't mean there's lesser pain. Its like... hai. Cos we are no longer classmates? I tried to organize outings and stuff... kp in touch etc.

Sian. They are right when they say some things are better unknown. Should never have known.

this gotta be the best mid-term break I ever had so far. And I'm so sure there's not going to be another like this to beat it. haha. No quizes after the week, no assignment, no tutorials etc. I know I shld have use this break to do something. Like revision or reading up etc. But... I sort of heck la. Since this is the mid-term BREAK, it means there's like half a term more to slog my guts out. When else can I relax when this is obviously the time to. So I shall recharge, and brace myself for the next 6-7 wks or so. More intensive project tasks for sure, cos we gotta be finishing them up to meet all the deadlines. But well... till we get there, let's not worry abt it for the moment.

So far, this week has been blissful...

Mon: Cooped up at home reading my books
Tues: Meeting HH & shuyi
Wed: Breakfast with dear (: & my first mid-autumn 'celeb' in at least 5 yrs
Thurs: My little getaway to Downtown East...

I think I shall spend weekend at home, after such an eventful week. hehe. also to settle myself down for the start of sch... Grr. Maybe that's the time to do some reading then... We'll see how it goes =P (ah gal, procrastinating?)

something just happened & I made up my mind to do something I otherwise might not have done. Don't worry guys, its not illegal or immoral, neither is it dangerous... Just did sth which might seem bad under other circumstances, but is totally justified cos I'm just showing that gals are no pushovers. wahaha... no no, eugene never ill-treat me... dont worry... This not about me...
(Wahaha... I got you curious now isn't it... Must be wondering what exactly is it...)

Today turned out surprisingly eventful thks to Shuyi & Heow Hui. I had almost spent the whole day lazing around reading my books. I was almost tempted into going to the library at JE to get some more bks. But I pulled out last min, lazy to leave my den, to face the blistering weather outside. In e end, shuyi & hh heading for IMM... so there I go... had a great time with them! haha, we spent like 5 hrs there lo. Chatting, shopping etc. The unexpected jokes really crack us up... LOL. Thks for the great afternoon guys (:

so many books I want to read!

• The 6th Target
  by James Patterson and Maxine Paetro
• Maximum Ride: The Angel Experiment
  by James Patterson
• Maximum Ride: School's Out-Forever
  by James Patterson
• Maximum Ride: Saving the World and Other Extreme Sports
  by James Patterson
• Step On A Crack
  by James Patterson & Michael Ledwidg

ARGH! I wanna read all of these James Patterson books! And there a few more which I've glanced at the bookstore but cant find on the official website... why is he so efficient in writing.. I can never ever catch up... ):

gatherings & shopping... great start to my recess week... met up with soonhui, shuyi, heow hui, yingxiu & edwin at citylink to eat at the jap restaurant... Its been so long since i last saw edwin, nv change much eh, haha...

anyway, was quite disappointed with the service of the staff that day. It came across as surprising as the last two times I came were good experiecnes and the crew was quite helpful and responsive (yes, please note: RESPONSIVE) last evening there were 3 of them who were standing right across our table, like 2-3 metres away... Chatting or talking let's not say, since they might have been discussing some restaurant matters, we wouldn't have known. But still, shldn't u kp a lookout for customers who might nd ur help etc? If you're busy then at least acknowledge n get others to help, there were like 2 of us kept saying 'excuse me, excuse me...' and they din notice us at all. Happened like twice la... and everytime we were served cos happens that this other waitress or waiter walked past... Felt so damn pissed at the second time I cant help raising my voice... I still got their email address... Maybe I really shld shoot an email there... hmph...

anyway, back to a happier note, just came back from shopping a while ago... in JB again... this time more of window shopping since I had a great haul last time abt a mth ago... so only bought a long sleeve top... now, getting a nap b4 I go out again... hehe... have a great weekend guys...

Have never curl up in my bed or sat lazily at my table reading a book for so long... Last nite I read till 2 plus and let weariness take over me b4 I was willing to go to bed... Finished a book called 'The Second Chance'. Well, I picked it up cos I was short of a book... I hate to come out of the library without 4 bks unless I have to. Given on the limited collection at JW Library... Its hard to find newer books. Recently also been reading Nora Roberts... Writing under the name of J.D. Robb for a serious of adult crime novels in 2059.

Quite fun... In that era, alot of things were automated. Computers are 'cleverer', being able to perform commands upon voice command. Can perform multiple database functions... Doing those data mining stuff, process info to help indentify suspects etc. They also have robots... household ones like a housekeeper. I forgot wad did they name it... Haven read it in a while, it was b4 sch start that I found an interest in this series... Although Roberts got other nice crime novels too... and she also writes fantasy and romance... which many were bestsellers but I havent pick up...

Oh... Adult crime novel meaning... More violent, more brutal... and of cos like all books originating from the West, there are the steamy scenes. But I like the setting of the book, haha... interesting to 'take a peek into the future'...

one thing I dread is going for interviews. I simply dislike the formality (be it the ambience or the attire on me...) and the facade I have to put on. What I'm trying to say here is I have to keep on 'selling' myself to the interviewer. Of cos I wasn't throwing out stories & lies abt myself... Its because its simply not me to talk on and on abt myself... trying to convince the other party how good I am... etc. I'm sure alot of you guys can agree with me on this...

But poor us... Being university students who not only have to study hard, but are also expected to produce a wonderful CV boasting of your various non-academic achievements... showing how you can juggle those mountains of tutorials and projects with a active life outside your pile of books...

Are you a leader or a follower?

In what ways do you think you can be an asset to the club?

How would you rate yourself in terms of management in a scale of 1 to 10?

And more of these questions... Argh... No matter wad's the results... I am quite reluctant to give up wadever free time I have for myself (which means to be spent with eugene, slacking at home and meeting up with friends... heh heh)... Hai. Shld I hope to get it or not?

Well... a picture says a thousand words... Much less these 2, heh heh... Finally uploaded the neoprints which we took at Lot 1 that day...

Feel much more relaxed and at ease today cos the quizes are finally over! WOO!

Anyway today the forensic science quiz was quite funny. Imagine 1200 people taking the paper in the NY Audi... not enough seats to sit one seat apart... So... heh heh. You can imagine wad happen la?
A lot murmurings... discussions, whispers here and there. =P The paper was quite unexpected la. Only 25 questions? That's 20% of our grade leh... In any case, I'm glad everything's over... Looking fwd to my recess! Hope that amidst the projects and things to do, I can squeeze out time for reading a book or two... Still haven read eugene's book - 5 People You Meet in Heaven... How long was that? Till now I still haven read...

Anyway guys... looking fwd to having dinner with u all this weekend, though its a pity not everyone can turn up! Now where should we go... hmm...

am I mad... how come I see names of psychologists I've just read on blogs... Quoted on a blog, rather.

No, upon double checking... it really is there. And it really is from what I've just revised. There I was staring at the name (Chomsky... ring a bell anyone?) and furiously trying to remember what this man did or said. Proposed a theory? Named some concept? Did some experiment? All I rem is he came from Chapter 7 - human development...

All the things I have to cramp inside my head b4 1130 tml morning... Argh.

after so long, me & eug finally managed to take neoprint tog. Cos we had went to PS, Bugis Juction but the neoprint shop there were either gone or under renovation. Now when was the last time I took neoprints? It was so long ago... in JC ba. Brought back some memories, all the squeezing in the machine and frantic rush to change pose, decorate... This is the first time I take neoprint without a big crowd, haha...

lucky for us the machine has unlimited decoration time. But I wasn't fast enough to choose all the shots I want, so end up with only 2 from all the 6 we took while trying to figure out how many we could actually choose. Its ok, takes experience, haha... we couldn't figure out the Japanese words... so next time we will go back to the same machine! Oh ya, now then I noe how overpriced the neoprint shops are in town... Cos we took ours for 5 bucks only and its the same like those in HMV.

anyway, shall scan soon and upload to show u all ya... wahaha =P

Oh ya, last nite ate Ajisen's for the first time since a long time... I don't rem when was the last. But I always love their soup base and the side orders... Spoilt for choice... haha. So many I wanna eat but can choose only one... =P

Oh well, enuff procrastination... back to revision... mug, mug, mug!

woke up in great pain this morning. wonder if it was the durians which was suspected of causing my dad to be nauseous and dizzy last night? Or is it just that my good friend decided to turn up for her monthly visit. In any case, I sat on my armchair for an agonizing half an hour before I could manage to drag myself up to wash up so I can get a hot drink. Only to puke first into the toilet. To think less than 12 hrs ago I heard my dad did the same thing at the very same toilet bowl.

What is happening?! Argh. No matter wad, it is so not the right time... I need my weekend to revise... So I just popped a panadol, the last thing I want to do. Never mind if those rumours of how long they stay inside my system. Once in a while wont hurt...

Anyway, lately people seem to be having relationship prob. My ex-colleague approached me on MSN desperate to talk to someone abt her failing relationship. Sometimes, despite all the warning signals and loud alarm bells that goes off, people still want to hang on to whatever was left of a once sweet and loving r/s.

I do wonder... In a world where people are so much more educated and open-minded, where we hear many stories of how people change their partners/spouses like the shoes on their feet or clothes on their racks... Why do things like that still happen? Is this perseverance? The I-love-him-and-I-will-wait-for-him-to-change attitude? Or do they not want to admit defeat? Of cos, the main reason is that there still is love for the other party. But if staying (or trying to make someone stay) makes both parties distressed and so troubled... Why make yourselves go through the emotional agony?

No, I'm not saying this cos I am happy in my r/s now and is oblivious and insensitive to my friend(s) (well, I'm sure there are many more incidents like this to come in future...). I totally understand where all that is coming from, I just cannot understand why when the solution is so simple - make a decision and give yourself time to get over it - some don't do it. Life is so short... And another colleague once said to me: Live for yourself...

When we were in France, among our many random chats in our rooms, Veron and me were discussing a similar topic. (we had so much free time you have no idea how many topics we can have in a single night) And she said sth like I am too rationale. Cos I made such a decision before and ended the previous r/s once and for all so there was no dragging and stuff. I hate that.

I just hope, for that friend and many others out there... Make a decision for yourself. And the someone whom u love. Cos when holding on makes life for two people miserable, why not take a step back and let go... This may even salvage whatever love you two may still have for each other even though you can't be tog and have an amicable end. Life is about so much more other than love and each other... Isn't it?

幸福是看得透 而不是舍不得他的所有
- <<触摸>>

been dragging myself past these few days quite wearily... Not that I dont get enuff slp. Its the first wk I get to start lessons at 1130 on a Mon. And seeing that tues was just a 4 hr ordeal and today I started at 1030. I shld have nothing to complain rite?

WRONG!

Seeing wk piled up on ourselves as the recess wk draws nearer. Next week will be living hell for me and Joyce... Well, take a look ar what we have on our plates...

Mon: Psychology quiz
Tues: HR quiz
Wed: In-class comms assignment(which means test lo...) + Forensic sci quiz
Thurs: Phase 1 report due for project...

And so, although all of us wants a break alot, look at what we gotta go thru b4 we really get it... ARGH! Just had a teeny bit of motivation from one of our group assignment. The one which had a big mad rush and we were 20 mins late in submitting. Lucky that tutor is those kind man. He gave us A+ for our efforts.

but then, went to chk my mail n realised this hotel which I wrote to last nite to request for interview for one of our group projects... REJECTED us... damn it la. Now wad?!?!

Career Foundations Module Criteria: Full Formal Wear

Now that 5 weeks are over, from tml onwards, Mon classes start at 1130, woohoo!

( Well, taken in e toilet so that explains the poor lighting =P )

me & Joyce! I was looking at her phone and she was looking in front. haha...
I got poor coordination paiseh...

last nite would have been perfect if the neoprint shop was still there at Bugis Junction! Long time nv go Bugis le, and since me n eug trying to take neoprint tog, we tot of going there. Went for the sumptious Claypot Rice at Tea Shake Hut. You guys should really go try it! Its in the same row as MOS Burger and Mac's. Sells milk tea also... Claypot Rice is a must-try if u go there... (: a lot of chicken n sausages, and if u go on weekdays there's set meal=main course +drink.. $7.50... All thks to Veron and Guo Min who showed me the place the last time i went...

Then was dessert! Wahaha... Mango with Sago. Mango with Grapefruit. Though crossing the road to get across the street to the row of shophouses there is a bit intimidating... But so many pp's doing it!

Sian... another day of reading reading reading... Been playing this papa pizzaria game... It's wad kept me going during my little breaks between reading. quite fun, like dinner dash concept, but the graphics are cute. Maybe u all can google or yahoo it. haha...

TGIF

don't ask me why last nite, or rather this morning, I was so affected by what cousin said. Stress? Well now I'm just glad its Friday!

On air now - Sundial Dreams by Kelvin Kern, recommended by Eugene. Real soothing song (: Hope you guys like it too!

cousin just approached me with this job opportunity. long term part time as a coordinator for entrepreneurs. the pay is good. but that's not what I was attracted to. it was the exposure and of cos the effect that it will have on my CV. yeah, I'm practical... anything wrong with that?

But honestly, 2-3 hrs everyday... Its not for me... I am not that efficient in my studies. Unfortunately I happen to be those who have to wk doubly (and maybe even more) hard for results which some people can achieve quite effortlessly. by this i of cos do not mean that they did not work hard for it, but their brains are just damn smart. So I really do not think I will be able to do this, besides, its long-term... It also doesn't help that I am not as motivated to study/mug like last time in NH.

I am starting to question myself... What do I want to achieve for myself? How come when such an opportunity jumps at me I didn't take it... I worry it'll affect my grades, but it actually isn't much to worry abt anyway. What's a 2nd lower honours worth?

then cousin started asking me have i tot abt my job, my future. What do i want to do? What kind of job do I want? What path to take? My answer was for now I just want to get gd grades, better grades... cos I haven really tot abt it. Though I've been looking out for career talks abt HRC in sch, it doesn't really count I guess... But he urged me to think more abt it and not be caught in the rat race like everyone else...

I know he meant well but I'm kinda stressed by him. Suddenly find myself very cynical. Very negative and discouraged to continue reading the stupid article. I hate things like this. Feelings like this. Too bad eug's slping... could have grumbled to him... or just talked abt it...

Feel lousy abt everything, including myself.

wondering what I shld do now... Pick up some tb to read, do my part of the project or slack my time away since its thurs and tml there's no sch.

Checked my email and saw the notice from the Financial Aid Dept. Sianz... this yr get 1150... I still rem last yr i got 1600! I think it was a trap to lure me in! Haiz. Better than nothing lo. At least it'll pay my phone bills...

I guess I can idle a while more... But I shld really pick up my psychology tb. Mid-term's coming soon and it needs a lot of memory wk judging from the guidelines they gave us to prep for it...

I'm finding it a great chore to do those readings. Some are especially dry, with endless lines of bombastic words that makes it so hard to digest. Every sentence is screaming "BORING!" to me... Hai. At least the textbk's not as bad... just that its equally long but the language is so much better. You can be quite captivated by my Psychology textbk, so colourful and with lots of pictures n backgrd knowledge to let u digest everything better. But of cos, Psychology requires us to rem a lot of terms... But well, let's worry abt that later.

Week 5 is alrdy ending... its so fast, isn't it? Soon it'll be recess and then after that will be the mad rush to complete projects and compile reports... ARGH. I wonder so far... what have I really achieved in university. No CCA, no straight As. Just avg results, that threaten to be pulled down if I don't sustain them by mugging... aiya. getting increasingly sian. Uni life is so dreadful, everyone ard is finding year 2 a complete bore. With the heavy wkload and tremendous readings...

Cant imagine what will it be like when I graduate... will all these really makes us what it takes to be a consultant?

ytd I went for my facial at my aunt's shop... My cousin happens to have a coffee stall nearby at the Bkt Timah Wet Market, so I went to visit her...

Since it was alrdy afternn, business was slow so I had the time to chat with her... Glad to see that both her n her husband's wking happily tog. But I also noticed this old woman who was collecting cups there.

Cousin told me she got a sad story... When I say she's old, she really is! She's a petite woman who's got white snowy hair, and is bent with age... Walks slowly... cos of her age - 82! Over 80 and she still has to wk! Little did I noe its cos her children refused to give her money... They refused to answer her calls. Even her husband who's old like her... is also wking...

This kind of story always make me sad... There are so many different kinds of people in this world... There are those who are poor, but yet are happy becos they learn to live with their lot. Make the best out of what they have and still be happy becos they noe how to be content.

But there are also some, who are born with a silver spoon in their mouth. Maybe even gold... and waste their money on pricely possessions, drinks, women, and the what-nots. And in e meantime, waste their life away too...

This world is sometimes really unfair isn't it? Some people just don't deserve what life has dealt them...

Compensation - Chapter 5

Psychology - Chapters 3, 4, 5

Strategic HR - Chapters 4, 5, 7, 8, 9, 11

Read, read, read...

woke up today feeling refreshed. and surprisingly... Motivated. ha. Exactly opposite of what I've been feeling like 12 hrs ago. I dunno... Somehow there's this voice inside my head telling me I can do it! I can catch up on e readings! Although... I know better than anyone else, it needs more than motivation. I also need like 48 hrs in a day. haha... Oh man, all e readings... Esp psyhology... I've only read 1.5 chapters and so far its week 5 tml... *shrugs*

A step at a time... From tml onwards I won't have to work... Hopefully I can squeeze time out of projects time to read, read, read!

Later going back to school to prepare for a group presentation tml with my grp. I'm glad at least this modules turning out good. Although its not exactly my fave. But at least I feel glad there's people who's enthu n spontaneous abt it... Okies, back to my slides...

guess its almost the same for everyone when u're stressed and overworked your mood tends to swing like a pendulum and u are as easy to snap as a stretched rubber band.

I can tell you that was how I feel this afternoon. And when I had the time to rest for a while, lie down on my bed... I cant slp. I just felt so tensed. Stressed. And my mind is so full of all the project details! ARGH! Cant even rest and relax properly to recharge. I lay on e bed for one full hour. How's that... I wouldn't call that much of a rest.

Apparently gt some cork up la. Quite pissed. The person supposed to compile went to some camp and ended up not contributing much. Not that its her fault she went for camp, she forgotten abt it. And she didn't even let us noe, or make any plans to make up for it. DAMN IT. Am I supposed to ask after u? And till now I havent heard from her, still at e camp I supposed. Next week I'm going to just do my part and wash my hands off the compiling wk. Hai.

So tired now. There's a lot to do... Although someone has helped to take over the compiling from me. I know I shldn't stop... But I just dont feel like doing anything. Just stay online. Read up on my Monday presentation and wk again tml ba.

I am so looking fwd to the recess week. Now my short term goal is

- 2300 tonight: hand up the darn group assignment.
- Mon: Last Career Foundations lesson, no more morning classes for mon after that. WOoHOo!
Group Presenation for Biz Comms.
Dinner with Eug? Havent cfm. haha. but at least its sth worth looking fwd to.

Our NH gang's at Chevron's singing KTV now. Wish to join u all too, but time's too tight for me. Maybe get u all out for a dinner someday... I still haven passed u all the Eiffel keychains...