woke up in great pain this morning. wonder if it was the durians which was suspected of causing my dad to be nauseous and dizzy last night? Or is it just that my good friend decided to turn up for her monthly visit. In any case, I sat on my armchair for an agonizing half an hour before I could manage to drag myself up to wash up so I can get a hot drink. Only to puke first into the toilet. To think less than 12 hrs ago I heard my dad did the same thing at the very same toilet bowl.

What is happening?! Argh. No matter wad, it is so not the right time... I need my weekend to revise... So I just popped a panadol, the last thing I want to do. Never mind if those rumours of how long they stay inside my system. Once in a while wont hurt...

Anyway, lately people seem to be having relationship prob. My ex-colleague approached me on MSN desperate to talk to someone abt her failing relationship. Sometimes, despite all the warning signals and loud alarm bells that goes off, people still want to hang on to whatever was left of a once sweet and loving r/s.

I do wonder... In a world where people are so much more educated and open-minded, where we hear many stories of how people change their partners/spouses like the shoes on their feet or clothes on their racks... Why do things like that still happen? Is this perseverance? The I-love-him-and-I-will-wait-for-him-to-change attitude? Or do they not want to admit defeat? Of cos, the main reason is that there still is love for the other party. But if staying (or trying to make someone stay) makes both parties distressed and so troubled... Why make yourselves go through the emotional agony?

No, I'm not saying this cos I am happy in my r/s now and is oblivious and insensitive to my friend(s) (well, I'm sure there are many more incidents like this to come in future...). I totally understand where all that is coming from, I just cannot understand why when the solution is so simple - make a decision and give yourself time to get over it - some don't do it. Life is so short... And another colleague once said to me: Live for yourself...

When we were in France, among our many random chats in our rooms, Veron and me were discussing a similar topic. (we had so much free time you have no idea how many topics we can have in a single night) And she said sth like I am too rationale. Cos I made such a decision before and ended the previous r/s once and for all so there was no dragging and stuff. I hate that.

I just hope, for that friend and many others out there... Make a decision for yourself. And the someone whom u love. Cos when holding on makes life for two people miserable, why not take a step back and let go... This may even salvage whatever love you two may still have for each other even though you can't be tog and have an amicable end. Life is about so much more other than love and each other... Isn't it?

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