last nite I was in quite bad condition, emotionally. felt like talking to someone abt it and here comes my kor, soonhui... Had one of those heart-to-heart talks with him abt friends and friendships... About those who are and those who had been.

when things like this (or chats like this) happen, it nv fails to bring back those memories. Somehow I feel I did an incredible job of getting over it. From being disappointed, sad, hurt etc (whatever you feel when a friendship or friend fails you) to being how I feel now - neutral, numb. And even though now I see her on a regular basis in class, I treat her like just another classmate, passerby, stranger. I know, some friends are concerned abt this, but... you guys know how I feel abt this, thks for ur concern but save the effort ba. I will not give in and let myself have another chance of getting hurt de. Hadn't they say once bitten, twice shy... I was bitten more times than that.

I went to re-read my blog entry last nite and realised I should have used a better word to describe what happened. Not drifted apart, but forgotten I guess. She smsed me to apologised for everything and say it was not organized by them but her bf. And it was a last min thing and etc. Actually... I'm disappointed at not only her, but the whole bunch of them, cos its not just one or two but the whole clique's that was there. She knew there was no excuse for what happened and apologised again.

Gal, (or gals) I dunno if you would be able to see this but here's my thoughts abt this incident... You know how my friendship(s) had failed b4 becos I trusted you gals enough to confide in u all. You gals also know how I felt abt things like this but yet... How did a thing like that happened I really dunno. But what hurts is not that I wasn't there to enjoy the fun and everything, but how... I was forgotten like some unimportant information by the lot of you. When its a whole lot of you, rather than only one... It hurts a lot more. I dunno how am I going to be able to talk and laugh with you all without remembering without this tugging at the back of my mind. I am not those type who will bury everything and pretend nothing happen, let it pass. I am those that will lose trust in someone when he/she did enuff damage to lose it. Forgetting it or not is another matter. But I will definitely let u know how I feel, so yep.

Am I making a big deal out of everything? No I don't think so