it feels good to have poured out everything with last night's post. today was in a much better state to help out around the house. needless to say, went over since the morning. and my 小姨 asked if i could stay over because they are worried abt how my aged uncle n auntie would be at home with the kids. they have to deal with the pouring in of calls and my aunt would cry with every call or visit. the kids are doing well, at least in front of me... and the two youngest ones would try to revise when they can.

I'm glad I stayed back cos there were alot of loose ends to take care of between the china and local undertaker. have to make sure all the information needed is sent over or vice versa. and the kids are too small to know certain details because when my uncles n grandma passed away they were too young to understand certain things.

all in all... I am coping, and so is my cousin's family. everyone is trying their best to take care of things here so they would not worry too much when they're in china.

i know it will nt be easy when the casket is transported back... everyone will have to deal with the loss again. and this time reality would fall right smack in our faces.

we'll be strong and press on.

for u!